Take Me, Please

anomicdeer

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I still have nothing. I am still trying right now, but I don't feel anything good will happen. I know that maybe if I mature up and work my ass off them maybe I will get what I want( I don't mean control, I don't want to rob people or rip them off or kill anyone that makes me mad). I want to be happy, get a job I love and be proud of who I am. Have a family maybe and just... love life.

I just feel that it won't happen. I don't want to try anymore. I guess I really am a lazy stupid little girl. I want someone to take me away, so I won't have to be responsible for anything. Where I don't have to think. Where I can just be miserable and die. I don't want to try anymore. I don't want anyone to think of me as "weak" because I committed suicide. I want to go away, lose contact with the people I know, and let them wonder. That would be better than killing myself. I don't care if I got a free plane ticket and the plane crashed or blew up. I just can't take this anymore. I don't know how to do this. I want an easy way in and I don't understand anything. So I don't deserve anything.
 

FOR REAL

Banned
people say to me "if you dont have anything sensible to say dont say anything at all"

but we all love luv you :):)
 
You are not alone in having days thinking like you are now. Just hang in there. Maybe you could take a break from your anxious thoughts by doing something you enjoy for a few hours. Just to give your mind a break from these intense thoughts.
 

Ren Koutaisou

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I also wish I could leave. My job sucks, my house is boring, my family barely speaks to each other, and I have trouble meeting people so I really don't have many friends. My friends are ass holes anyway, so **** them.

When I get enough money, I'm out of here. No going away party or anything. I'm too scared to kill myself though.

And don't say you don't deserve anything. You do deserve something.
 

anomicdeer

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You are not alone in having days thinking like you are now. Just hang in there. Maybe you could take a break from your anxious thoughts by doing something you enjoy for a few hours. Just to give your mind a break from these intense thoughts.

I always have these days. I try to shut up about it but I can't control it. It's like an alternative to writing in my journal. I'll be fine. I just can't NOT think about these things. Don't know why.
 

mrb

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your being a little hard on yourself there ....things change you change , give it a little time , your attitude to life might change as you get a little older ...
 

anomicdeer

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I also wish I could leave. My job sucks, my house is boring, my family barely speaks to each other, and I have trouble meeting people so I really don't have many friends. My friends are ass holes anyway, so **** them.

When I get enough money, I'm out of here. No going away party or anything. I'm too scared to kill myself though.

And don't say you don't deserve anything. You do deserve something.

We are pretty much in the same position except I don't have friends nor a job(if you have one). Seriously.
 
You should start thinking postive, throw away the bad thoughts about yourself!
I can't feel what you are feeling but don't make things worse than they are, there's always a way;)
 

Kat

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Yeah, you need some tlc if people won’t give than, what makes you happy? Sometimes watching a feel good movie or music can help. :)
 

Ren Koutaisou

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My job makes me crazy. Makes me crazy. Makes me crazy. I thought about quitting, but no work, no food. Also bills, but food gets the honorable mention because it takes precedence over bills.
 

Lorraine Manca

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its too hard to think that things will get better later when later never seems to come. you've got to really try hard to find something that you have right now to live for. you're not weak for giving up because there's nothing to give up, thats the nature of being sad for a long time i think, you have "nothing" like you say. its too hard for anybody to live for that. you have to find meaning where ever you can in the here and now.
most important, like FOR REAL says, we love you! so hold on!
 

anomicdeer

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You should start thinking postive, throw away the bad thoughts about yourself!
I can't feel what you are feeling but don't make things worse than they are, there's always a way;)

The negative one's keep coming back... they always do.
 

anomicdeer

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I cannot find a way,
To describe it,
It there, Inside,
All I do is hide,
I wish that it would just go away,
What would you do?
You do?
If you knew,
What would you do,

All the pain I thought I knew,
All these thoughts lead back to you,
Back to what was never said,
Back and forth inside my head,
I can't handle this confusion,
I'm unable,
Come and take me away,

I feel like I'm all alone,
All by myself,
I need to get around this,
My words are cold,
I don't want them to hurt you,
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand,
Cos no one understands.


Song* Take Me Away by AL :/

The thoughts.. coming back
*Back and forth inside my head*
 

Lorraine Manca

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get it out and purge it
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206Raider

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I still have nothing. I am still trying right now, but I don't feel anything good will happen. I know that maybe if I mature up and work my ass off them maybe I will get what I want( I don't mean control, I don't want to rob people or rip them off or kill anyone that makes me mad). I want to be happy, get a job I love and be proud of who I am. Have a family maybe and just... love life.

I just feel that it won't happen. I don't want to try anymore. I guess I really am a lazy stupid little girl. I want someone to take me away, so I won't have to be responsible for anything. Where I don't have to think. Where I can just be miserable and die. I don't want to try anymore. I don't want anyone to think of me as "weak" because I committed suicide. I want to go away, lose contact with the people I know, and let them wonder. That would be better than killing myself. I don't care if I got a free plane ticket and the plane crashed or blew up. I just can't take this anymore. I don't know how to do this. I want an easy way in and I don't understand anything. So I don't deserve anything.

I want that too, I think I want to move out of the country to like Australia or Africa and sleep in a tent. Maybe get eaten by a lion, I'd rather not get eaten by a lion though.
 

Newtype

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The negative one's keep coming back... they always do.

Maybe you spend so much time reflecting on your problems that you don't spend enough time thinking about what you need to do to make your life better. You already know what you want in life. You're not lazy, you're not stupid, you're just lost. You're not alone and you know that. Even if you were on another planet, you'd still be the same girl inside and nothing would change. Take your time, make baby steps, get rid of one problem at a time. If you rush, you'll be overwhelmed and pushed back to the beginning. You got a lot of support here. The possibilities to accomplish anything are inside of you. Keep believing in yourself, don't give up :)
 

Richey

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i really do empathise with you ...
i think for me the problems are similar ..i mean as a male i'm expected to be the all encompassing provider and confident figure so this SA thing is definitely a wall in the way. ..in part...i mean i'm still in a low income form of employment at age 26 even with an education and i just feel that i need a lucky break or my life financially at least will be very mediocre and quite sad and when you are looking at dating or finding a relationship girls probably wont be too impressed with the financial side of things even if they do like me as a person...in terms of friendships, well that is something i'll never give up on and it may take alot of chipping away to make a good bunch of friends and also diving into my interests properly rather then being half hearted all the time needs to happen ...
 
Maybe you spend so much time reflecting on your problems that you don't spend enough time thinking about what you need to do to make your life better. You already know what you want in life. You're not lazy, you're not stupid, you're just lost. You're not alone and you know that. Even if you were on another planet, you'd still be the same girl inside and nothing would change. Take your time, make baby steps, get rid of one problem at a time. If you rush, you'll be overwhelmed and pushed back to the beginning. You got a lot of support here. The possibilities to accomplish anything are inside of you. Keep believing in yourself, don't give up :)

Well said!
 
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