Swimming up denial.

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flakeybark said:
I think partly it has to do with inexperience. Staying in too much and becoming detached from things.

When I haven't done anything difficult in a while, I do sometimes find myself thinking I may not have an anxiety problem at all but simply don't know how to meet people. Then, of course, some anxiety-causing situation comes up to remind me. Though with me it's not really falling on my face because I'm not seriously trying anything all that social when I'm feeling good (hooray for being lazy and unmotivated), and I don't get too depressed about it (maybe it's tripping on a small step with a padded landing).
 
Not really. The last time I had a social encounter was I don't even know how long ago. Maybe I think too much that I can't do it, plus don't even know how. I've figured I've been doing things wrong, so I guess I think everything is not what it should be. I mean, no one has called me in how many years, or blah blah blah so I don't build myself up and then get disappointed. I'll even think everything is going to go so horribly wrong, that even if soemthing goes "normal" I'll be pleasantly surprised.
 

Andrew

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Yeah I forget just how crippling my problems are and just how little control I have over them until I actually go out and do something and they hit me like a steam train. It certainly brings you back down to earth doesn't it :)
 

Havocan

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I've had periods where everything has seemed so easy and it has deluded me into believing I just swam against the current when I felt alone, but in the end there's always one or more social situations {which develop into issues} that pretty much confirm my SA and APD. I no longer want to deny it, I'm also trying to get help, only too bad I'm to shy and anxious to call for a psychologist appointment ^^.
 

no1

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yeah man.. the roller coaster ride. just when you think things are going well, as much as you feel good it sets you up for a rude awakening when it doesn't turn out to be real... or you encounter a set back or a series of setbacks which yous tart to think are not just isolated events but a series of "bad luck" events because you are part of some grand conspiracy. wel I think that way sometimes.

orI start to think really...mediocre thoughts about extreme realism like I can't be cured, social darwinism and darwinism in general. u know... "life is short, sucks,u work (for nothing) then u die" kinda thoughts.
 
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