I don't want to die. Life is pretty good..ive been dealing with my social anxiety quiet well..ive been having laughs with people and have a new found confidence when talking to people even folks I dont know. I have stopped cutting myself as much and am feeling great..and exicted to see what happens next. However ive been having frequent suicidal thoughts ( repeat i don't want to kill myself) they scare me I can be walking across a road and a car comes and I want to step out, I go to the knife draw to get a knife to make dinner and I think of stabbing myself, I can be going to the shop and think I want to buy medication to take an overdose....these thoughts are frequent and can appear at random times...they make me scared because I have never had so intense thoughts...ive never done any of these things but I dont know why id think like that...im scared of myself