Substance abuse cravings

dannyboy65

dannyboy65

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Well years ago, about 4 I quit doing drugs and abusing alcohol. I was pretty much high all the time or drunk. It was a mess. I was also a smoker and recently I just hit 2 years smoke free on the 1st of December. Over last summer though I picked up drinking again and drank till I was drunk almost every night for 2 months. I began to really crave alcohol when I wasn't drinking. My choice was beer cause in the past I drank way to much hard liquors and it made me awfully sick.

I know it sounds ridiculous wanting drugs and alcohol after so long, but I don't know since I stopped the wants of being high or drunk never went away. Yet I can't do it. I wouldn't be able to be an RCW, I would probably lose a lot of my friends and girlfriend. I think those are the only things keeping me from going back. Yet sometimes in my head I want to throw it all away, although I know I would regret it.

One of the hardest things to avoid right now is cigarettes. I miss smoking and I want to more and more every day. I push myself really hard not to smoke.

I guess what I'm saying is what I want is wrong and comes with negative solutions. Yet in a way I feel I will slip again.
 
Bronson99

Bronson99

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dannyboy65 said:
Well years ago, about 4 I quit doing drugs and abusing alcohol. I was pretty much high all the time or drunk. It was a mess. I was also a smoker and recently I just hit 2 years smoke free on the 1st of December. Over last summer though I picked up drinking again and drank till I was drunk almost every night for 2 months. I began to really crave alcohol when I wasn't drinking. My choice was beer cause in the past I drank way to much hard liquors and it made me awfully sick.

I know it sounds ridiculous wanting drugs and alcohol after so long, but I don't know since I stopped the wants of being high or drunk never went away. Yet I can't do it. I wouldn't be able to be an RCW, I would probably lose a lot of my friends and girlfriend. I think those are the only things keeping me from going back. Yet sometimes in my head I want to throw it all away, although I know I would regret it.

One of the hardest things to avoid right now is cigarettes. I miss smoking and I want to more and more every day. I push myself really hard not to smoke.

I guess what I'm saying is what I want is wrong and comes with negative solutions. Yet in a way I feel I will slip again.
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I'm dealing with this, too. It's tough, but over time with sobriety, it gets easier. I used to have a drug addiction and eventually, as the threats to my health (mental as well as physical) became very overt, I was simply forced to quit. The cravings were very intense for a long time, because you don't forget the buzz until about 5 years afterwards. To supplicate the missing substance, like the fool I was, I replaced that with alcohol which became another addiction.

It seems my physiology revolted from both addictions, in a way, or perhaps it overstimulated my nervous system. For instance I used to be able to handle multiple shots of whiskey without many ill effects. Nowadays just 1-2 average beers and I have to deal with a hangover for most of the next day, it's like the reaction is "extreme." No way I could function if I drank 2 beers every night, even with just one daily, I would be functioning at a sub-normal level. I guess I have a kind of "forced sobriety" which is a blessing in one way, but also a curse because I can't even have a single glass of wine to relax, without dealing with annoying side-effects!
 
Megaten

Megaten

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Bronson99 said:
It seems my physiology revolted from both addictions, in a way, or perhaps it overstimulated my nervous system. For instance I used to be able to handle multiple shots of whiskey without many ill effects. Nowadays just 1-2 average beers and I have to deal with a hangover for most of the next day, it's like the reaction is "extreme." No way I could function if I drank 2 beers every night, even with just one daily, I would be functioning at a sub-normal level. I guess I have a kind of "forced sobriety" which is a blessing in one way, but also a curse because I can't even have a single glass of wine to relax, without dealing with annoying side-effects!
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This has happened to me too. I used to drink to the point of being wasted like every other day in my early 20s. Now if I drink even a little I get headaches. Which sucks like you said because its a nice relaxer especially if youre having dinner with people. So I have to consume tons of water just to deal with even a tiny bit of wine. Yeah maybe we messed something up :idontknow:
 
Pacific_Loner

Pacific_Loner

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^Interesting. I have this headache problem too and everyone thinks I'm ridiculous and that I could not possibly have a hangover feeling for drinking just 1 glass. I never thought of a link with the past substance abuse.

I don't really have any advice for th OP :/
 
dannyboy65

dannyboy65

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I find I drank so much that if I drink hard liquor I get the feeling of being sick. I drink usually would drink up to 6 beers a night over the summer. It doesn't take to long for me to get drunk, but if I drink beer I don't seem to get hungover. If I drink hard stuff though I feel sick and have a hangover the next day.
 
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