Hello,
I've never used an online forum and I thought I could get some help.
I have social phobia and bipolar and exceptionally shy, I have, well had, 1 best friend who somewhat understood my conditions but it seems as though she's had enough of my ways and decided that she didn't want to be friends anymore. I don't have any other friends and my family come from a background that don't understand mental illness, especially in young adults, I'm 25. My family are starting to get really angry and annoyed with my mood swings and I try to tell them it's something I can't control even though I try soo hard. I can't make friends because of my social phobia, if I haven't had a panic attack and ran away, my mind goes completely blank and awkward silence is not the word for it. Even with my old friend and family I just go blank, you would think I was a stranger hanging about.
I need help, I've never had a lot of friends and as the years are going by I'm loosing everyone. I know it's my fault but I just don't know what to do, how do I overcome myself to make friends? I'm lost, alone and isolated from the real world. I hope someone can help me find answers, it just seems that all my conditions counteract one another and I'm stuck in this circle.
I don't have many interestes as most interests include being in a group of people, I feel like I'm some sort of weirdo, I don't feel normal and I definitely am not normal. I just need some advice please, I miss my best friend but she won't talk to me at all anymore.
I've never used an online forum and I thought I could get some help.
I have social phobia and bipolar and exceptionally shy, I have, well had, 1 best friend who somewhat understood my conditions but it seems as though she's had enough of my ways and decided that she didn't want to be friends anymore. I don't have any other friends and my family come from a background that don't understand mental illness, especially in young adults, I'm 25. My family are starting to get really angry and annoyed with my mood swings and I try to tell them it's something I can't control even though I try soo hard. I can't make friends because of my social phobia, if I haven't had a panic attack and ran away, my mind goes completely blank and awkward silence is not the word for it. Even with my old friend and family I just go blank, you would think I was a stranger hanging about.
I need help, I've never had a lot of friends and as the years are going by I'm loosing everyone. I know it's my fault but I just don't know what to do, how do I overcome myself to make friends? I'm lost, alone and isolated from the real world. I hope someone can help me find answers, it just seems that all my conditions counteract one another and I'm stuck in this circle.
I don't have many interestes as most interests include being in a group of people, I feel like I'm some sort of weirdo, I don't feel normal and I definitely am not normal. I just need some advice please, I miss my best friend but she won't talk to me at all anymore.