Anonymous
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ok - i sweat, get cotton mouth, my heart rate goes up, i fumble, i mix words up and i become aware of every single action i make.
Maybe i'm crazy? I'm pretty sure this is all Social Anxiety, i just don't know how to deal with it, or if i want to...
i procrastinate a lot, i leave things until the last moment... so i'm poor at seeing a dr. or getting help that way...
i have a hard time in public, and a very hard time talking to someone... unless i feel really comfortable with someone i can't really hold much of a conversation. i answer stuff, but i never ask or initiate. i take my discman everywhere i go. i feel weird if i'm outside, in public, and don't have my headphones on... it's also a way to stop strangers from trying to initiate a conversation with me.
40 minutes ago i had to show my apt to some people - i'm moving out... my mouth got dry as soon as the bell rang, i was licking my lips constantly because they were so dry, i became aware of every action i took, i didn't know what to say, and i was sweating a little. it's 40 minutes later and my mouth is still dry - i've been drinking and drinking and it doesn't help... it's 40 minutes later and i'm still fucking worked up from having to show a fucking apartment to 3 fucking people...
i go out with my g/f and i can hardly talk to her friends, i don't know what to say and i feel like an idiot if i do say anything. it's like everything i say will be dumb and people will shit on me like they always have. i sit in university classes and keep quiet to myself with an answer, even though i'm 99% sure i'm right (and i usually am)... i'm scared i'll be wrong, or that a teacher or student will laugh at me for giving my answer or opinion on something.
the only way i can converse is via the internet. i'm great at using message boards - but in person i'm a boring fuck. i can't talk to people, i don't want to talk to people and i'm sick and tired of it.
maybe i'm just a psycho... or maybe i can get help - i just don't know how to.
Maybe i'm crazy? I'm pretty sure this is all Social Anxiety, i just don't know how to deal with it, or if i want to...
i procrastinate a lot, i leave things until the last moment... so i'm poor at seeing a dr. or getting help that way...
i have a hard time in public, and a very hard time talking to someone... unless i feel really comfortable with someone i can't really hold much of a conversation. i answer stuff, but i never ask or initiate. i take my discman everywhere i go. i feel weird if i'm outside, in public, and don't have my headphones on... it's also a way to stop strangers from trying to initiate a conversation with me.
40 minutes ago i had to show my apt to some people - i'm moving out... my mouth got dry as soon as the bell rang, i was licking my lips constantly because they were so dry, i became aware of every action i took, i didn't know what to say, and i was sweating a little. it's 40 minutes later and my mouth is still dry - i've been drinking and drinking and it doesn't help... it's 40 minutes later and i'm still fucking worked up from having to show a fucking apartment to 3 fucking people...
i go out with my g/f and i can hardly talk to her friends, i don't know what to say and i feel like an idiot if i do say anything. it's like everything i say will be dumb and people will shit on me like they always have. i sit in university classes and keep quiet to myself with an answer, even though i'm 99% sure i'm right (and i usually am)... i'm scared i'll be wrong, or that a teacher or student will laugh at me for giving my answer or opinion on something.
the only way i can converse is via the internet. i'm great at using message boards - but in person i'm a boring fuck. i can't talk to people, i don't want to talk to people and i'm sick and tired of it.
maybe i'm just a psycho... or maybe i can get help - i just don't know how to.