So I'm supposed to return to my old job tommorow...

Plissken

Active member
I absolutely hated it, it was a cashier at a sports venue. Dealing with customers all day, answering phones, worst of all the co workers and bosses who were always talking to each other and me and all that. I never got comfortable at all and the anxiety just got worse and worse. I can't face it again. My gut has been churning with anxiety for the past week straight thinking about it. When I go back, everyone's going to want to know what I've been up to and all that shit, and I just can't stand it.

The only reason I'm returning is that my mom is friends with the manager's wife, so she set it up again. I've been unemployed for a few months now so she's no longer letting me have a choice.

I've been hoping something would come up to give me a good reason not to return. Like I wish I could have a seizure or something or actually go insane or something to have an excuse. Or I get in a car wreck or something on the way, not that anyone gets hurt or anything.

I just don't want to be trapped there again. My mom will be furious if I don't go but I'm just so scared about it. I want a job where you don't have to deal with people at all. I wish I could work from home.

I can't face my fears, I already worked there and another place and I ended up quiting because of it.
 
If you don't want to go, then don't. Tell your mother that you're not interested in a cashier job. Keep looking for another job that you'll like, eventually you'll find one.
 

Lewis

Member
Hi Plissken,

ah man, I can feel your pain....that's a shitty position to be in....I know how it feels.....but my advice, [if you want it?!], is to try to think about all the positive outcomes that could potentially come of this.....potentially this could be a really good thing for you.....what if this was the moment it all turned around for you......what if this was the moment you decided to say no to your fears, and decided to stand up to them, and take control of your life....what if this was the moment you look back on in years to come and recognize as the time when you really began to take self control and to think positively....what if there's a person at work that you actually genuinely connect with....who has insecurities just like the rest of us...and you make a new friend.....or what if this was the job where you realised that you were strong enough to hold it down.....think of the freedom and power that will bring.....think of the paycheck and how good it would feel.....maybe you'll feel so fuelled up by your success's with this job that you'll start thinking about even greater career steps.....your confidence could hit the roof!!!

if you're anything like me, I know your brain will probably instinctivly go back to the negatives, but give it a try man.....when your brain starts sending negative signals, just tell it, "no....I'm gonna give this one a shot....it's just a job.....it's not so scary.....it's ok to be quiet....I'm just gonna focus on the customers and doing a good job.....and think about how good it will feel at the end of each day when I make it through, AGAIN, unscathed"

go for it man!!! good luck!
 
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