So filled with anxiety you feel like your gonna crack up?

rko74

rko74

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Today at my job in the grocery store, there was so many people in the store.I got so dam anxious and nervous i felt like as if , if someone was to talk to me i would just "crack up" and my voice would give out or start shaking or i would look visibly scared.Has anyone ever felt like this?Its a really disturbing feeling.Not sure if it was a panic attack or what.
 
Diluted_Acid

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Crack up as in laugh? . . . . Hell yes all the time for me! haha, whether it be with friends, at work, at school, or anywhere, i will just laugh when i'm nervous. I even have early memories of having fits of laughter when my mum would threaten to hit me while trying to eliminate my learning difficulties when i was 5 or so. I hope i'm not off track about this? :?
 
Richey

Richey

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this happened to me once but the circumstances were a little different...when i was around 16 and sitting in science class the group behind me started hitting me around the back of the head so i moved and told them where to go and they kept following me and wouldnt stop hasseling me...so i had a panic attack and couldnt stop coughing, i literally cracked...this was going on for a number of months and even when i defended myself it all caught up with me and it came down to that one moment .....it was just one of those horrible moments that still effects me now, i think its why i still carry that paranoia with me.....

again its a little off topic but im certain i experianced a full on panic attack in front of the entire class, im happy to say that since then ive never come close to anything that dramatic.....but when im around large groups of people i do sweat and i struggle to focus, i dont think ive ever let go of those days, especailly in new environments around egos....its the root of my SA issues i feel, im trying to forget my past now...i need to erase it and move on....im sure that people have had worse problems then that
 
Waybuloo

Waybuloo

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Richey said:
this happened to me once but the circumstances were a little different...when i was around 16 and sitting in science class the group behind me started hitting me around the back of the head so i moved and told them where to go and they kept following me and wouldnt stop hasseling me...so i had a panic attack and couldnt stop coughing, i literally cracked...this was going on for a number of months and even when i defended myself it all caught up with me and it came down to that one moment .....it was just one of those horrible moments that still effects me now, i think its why i still carry that paranoia with me.....

again its a little off topic but im certain i experianced a full on panic attack in front of the entire class, im happy to say that since then ive never come close to anything that dramatic.....but when im around large groups of people i do sweat and i struggle to focus, i dont think ive ever let go of those days, especailly in new environments around egos....its the root of my SA issues i feel, im trying to forget my past now...i need to erase it and move on....im sure that people have had worse problems then that
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This sounds like me. I had a period of feeling that my anxiety is getting worse and worse, and that i can't compose myself if i am in teh centre of attention. I guess the fear built up and in class i once had what felt like a panic attack, and i jsut felt like i cracked, i couldnt control my shaking in front of the whole class. From then on i struggle to compsoe myself and curb shaking when in class situations or groups to say the least. It's not that easy to forget ur past because everytime ur faced with a similar situation or something that reminds u of ur 'traumatic' experience where you cracked, you kinda relive that. This is not much of a help either.
 
stormygrey

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Chihiro said:
I guess the fear built up and in class i once had what felt like a panic attack, and i jsut felt like i cracked, i couldnt control my shaking in front of the whole class. From then on i struggle to compsoe myself and curb shaking when in class situations or groups to say the least.
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i can relate to that... im in uni rite now, and there are times when i just lose it in class internally, bcos there are so many pple around, especially confident and self-assured people. but i manage to hold it in somehow... my muscles tense up and my whole body goes stiff and i cant process wat people are telling me.. i try to sit super still, look calm, but my muscles just tense even more til i cant control the shaking,n my minds like a disaster area, where i'm mainly visualing just standing up and running away/shouting out loud... just wanting to get outta there, waiting for the minutes to go by...

guess wat i try to do, (not really succesful, but mayb it wld work for others?) is to keep thinking to keep calm... just endure? because u've endured so many times so far w/out cracking. most imptly i guess try not to judge oneself... or mayb tell oneself that people wont notice cos most of them are busy with their own probs! i know, not v helpful, bt yea tats wat i had to offer. gd luck..!
 
LA-girl

LA-girl

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Yup, this reaction is all too familiar to me. But in my case at least I feel it happens more frequently at times where I'm more stressed or worn out.
I have discovered that my anxiety and extent of panic attacks are closely related to my physical health. Some days it feels as though my body just can not handle any pressure at all and unable to handle situations I handle just fine on normal days...

Actually when I think about it it was not until I realized this pattern a few years ago that I came to terms with that I had to accept myself despite my anxiety or panic attacks and started to lower my own expectations. I discovered it was not only a mental thing, but to a high extent also a physical thing and in a sense I started to gain more control of my situation.

Now I understand why I suddenly have a panic attack in a situation that I normally don't, while before I thought that it was the mental part of me who failed and that my anxiety progressed. I know that is not the case anymore...When having a panic-attack now I just tell myself I'm having a bad day... 8)
 
Higolo

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Diluted_Acid said:
Crack up as in laugh? . . . . Hell yes all the time for me! haha, whether it be with friends, at work, at school, or anywhere, i will just laugh when i'm nervous. I even have early memories of having fits of laughter when my mum would threaten to hit me while trying to eliminate my learning difficulties when i was 5 or so. I hope i'm not off track about this? :?
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Same happens to me man!
You get more nervous because you're bloody laughing aswell!

Does this happen to most or is it just us? Hm..
 
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maggie

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Higolo said:
Diluted_Acid said:
Crack up as in laugh? . . . . Hell yes all the time for me! haha, whether it be with friends, at work, at school, or anywhere, i will just laugh when i'm nervous. I even have early memories of having fits of laughter when my mum would threaten to hit me while trying to eliminate my learning difficulties when i was 5 or so. I hope i'm not off track about this? :?
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Same happens to me man!
You get more nervous because you're bloody laughing aswell!

Does this happen to most or is it just us? Hm..
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sometimes, at work...i seem to find something funnier than anyone else does, and keep laughing, way longer than anyone else....kind of a nervous laugh i guess....it's really embarassing man!!.....but then, a totally opposite thing can happen too :? ...somebody i work with will come up to me and say .."you are gonna laugh your ass off when i tell you this!"..then, they tell me, and i couldn't force a laugh out no matter how hard i try...and i can't fake a laugh either..and i end up feeling stupid :roll:
 
MarCPatt

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I also get very nervous and feel like I am about to have a breakdown. But usually nothing happens. Life just keeps going. It only makes me wonder of why I just have not been able to stop my self from reaching this point of complete anxiety. Maybe with more time I can just not give an f--- about anything or anyone. Just have to keep on working on this stupid problem and keep hoping that one day I may just win this war.

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tehStranger

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good post :)

yeah, my problem is while i'm out and about, there're things that mentally trigger reactions from me. I can't help laughing. Even looking in the mirror does this. My mind is constantly cycling through things, and this could be in part to OCD. Try concentrating in a computer Networking course with all the tech babble, abbrievations, theroy been thrown at you while there's this constant noise in your brain. The drowsyness of the meds doensn't help either.

like I stated prior, i'm different now. I'm looking at things in different ways, but there's alot of distoration that needs to be tuned out. Some people are not helping :wink: It's going to take awhile for me to adapt, especially in this school enviroment.
 
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