CHAKRAPOINT
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living in a place where everyone knows one another is not good for my anxiety.people who i have never met know that i dont get out of the house and that is squashing my plans for girlfriends as as my plan was to hide from the world till i got better then come out but before i am even get better girls know my situation by word of mouth so before i even meet a person they already have a pre conceived notion of how i am and my life situation.
my parents talkin about me to my uncles and aunts and neighbors also doesnt help as when they ask my parents how my life is they have nothing else to tell them bexcept how my life is at the moment as i dont do much except go to school and come str8 home and go on the computer.my neighbor has a daughter who i like and was planning on getting with her when my situation became straightend out but since my dad told my neighbor about what i do the daughter has became distant and i think she thinks i am a computer geek or something.i hate it when word of mouth spreads cause my dad tells neighbor,neighbor tells kids,kids go to tell friends whose friends were my friends,and its as if evry1 is connected.
dad tells aunt,aunt tells cousins,cousins tell their friends,those friends go tell other friends who in some way or other i am connected to.this ruins my chance of creating an image of how id like to be seen by the outside world in my country as our population is less than two million so wherever i go to in the country there is always people who are connected to my past living area.
so now in order to relocate i have to move out of the country completely when im ready to move.all this connectedness squashes my chances of creating a new life as people would think im acting out of character or im not being myself as they already have an idea of how i am like.
not even moving to a new college or uni will help as all the tertiary institutions are in a 30 mile distance from one another.there is no better place in my country to move to as i am in the best city compared to the rest wich are smaller and worse so imagine if i am in the biggest place in my country and everyone knows each other moving elsewhere in my country is just going to be worse.
my parents talkin about me to my uncles and aunts and neighbors also doesnt help as when they ask my parents how my life is they have nothing else to tell them bexcept how my life is at the moment as i dont do much except go to school and come str8 home and go on the computer.my neighbor has a daughter who i like and was planning on getting with her when my situation became straightend out but since my dad told my neighbor about what i do the daughter has became distant and i think she thinks i am a computer geek or something.i hate it when word of mouth spreads cause my dad tells neighbor,neighbor tells kids,kids go to tell friends whose friends were my friends,and its as if evry1 is connected.
dad tells aunt,aunt tells cousins,cousins tell their friends,those friends go tell other friends who in some way or other i am connected to.this ruins my chance of creating an image of how id like to be seen by the outside world in my country as our population is less than two million so wherever i go to in the country there is always people who are connected to my past living area.
so now in order to relocate i have to move out of the country completely when im ready to move.all this connectedness squashes my chances of creating a new life as people would think im acting out of character or im not being myself as they already have an idea of how i am like.
not even moving to a new college or uni will help as all the tertiary institutions are in a 30 mile distance from one another.there is no better place in my country to move to as i am in the best city compared to the rest wich are smaller and worse so imagine if i am in the biggest place in my country and everyone knows each other moving elsewhere in my country is just going to be worse.
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