LovelyAmor
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Did anyone experience this as a child? I have never been physically abused in any way, but I was severely abused mentally and emotionally by my mother. She never really encouraged social interaction or social involvement with other kids my age. Sometimes she would tease me worse than the kids at school. She was very cold emotionally and never showed any affection. When I would cry she would look at me like I was stupid. She later told me right after my grandmother died, that after she had me, she took me to an adoption agency, left me there for a few days, then came back and got me. And she did because 'God' told her to, not because she wanted to.
I am uncomfortable showing emotion. Sometimes my emotions feel out of place inside me and I don't really know what to do with them. I become confused and anxious when placed in emotional situations and I don't know the proper way to react. Instead of crying about things I just try to block it out or do something productive with my time. I have detachment issues and I don't really know how to form emotional connections with people. I feel disconnected and detached.
I have a hard time getting physically close and showing affection. I want to be able to get close to people, respond emotionally, and comfortable with my feelings but it is extremely difficult. I've dealt with most traumatic situations in my life by just "blocking them out". That's all i've ever known to do.
I'm getting a HUGE refund check soon from college. Do any of you think I should use some of it to see a therapist? I saw one before but it was only for 15 minutes and i'm afraid I might be wasting my money again.
I just want to know what I should do to become healthy emotionally instead of feeling all the confusion/discomfort with what is going on inside of me.
Do the rest of you have these issues?
I am uncomfortable showing emotion. Sometimes my emotions feel out of place inside me and I don't really know what to do with them. I become confused and anxious when placed in emotional situations and I don't know the proper way to react. Instead of crying about things I just try to block it out or do something productive with my time. I have detachment issues and I don't really know how to form emotional connections with people. I feel disconnected and detached.
I have a hard time getting physically close and showing affection. I want to be able to get close to people, respond emotionally, and comfortable with my feelings but it is extremely difficult. I've dealt with most traumatic situations in my life by just "blocking them out". That's all i've ever known to do.
I'm getting a HUGE refund check soon from college. Do any of you think I should use some of it to see a therapist? I saw one before but it was only for 15 minutes and i'm afraid I might be wasting my money again.
I just want to know what I should do to become healthy emotionally instead of feeling all the confusion/discomfort with what is going on inside of me.
Do the rest of you have these issues?