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    what are your mornings like?

    My mornings are always the same, they are soul crushingly painful. When I wake up, I am greeted by fear, anxiety, depression, and a strong urge to want to kill myself. I have tried many routines over the years to change this but I just can't get out of this jam. About 2 hours after I have...
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    Can't think of a title

    I remember a time when nothing could get to me because I was always calm and relaxed. It was probably my defining quality. But man ever since the mental breakdown started happening, it's been over ten years now, I have been losing my defining quality. Now it is completely gone and I have...
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    will it ever get better?

    Years of anxiety and depression coupled with suicidal thoughts that are getting stronger with each passing day. I'm angry, scared,sad,and shaking as I am writing this. Just had a fallout with the man I am biologically related to, I refuse to use the D word to refer to him as he isn't worth it...
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    If you had a choice

    I for one wish I was never born. It's a thought that goes through my mind all the time because I am always miserable and hate the fact that I let people around me down. But what if you had a say in the matter. Knowing how your life was going to turn out up to this very moment in time, would...
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    my current struggle

    This post is going to be a bit weird for me to write but it is one that is constantly on my mind. If anyone has read some of my previous posts you'll know I struggle with anxiety,depression, and suicidal thoughts almost on a daily basis. Lately I have been feeling that if it weren't for my...
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    3rd person perspective

    Anyone else feel as if you are just watching your life pass you by? Like with me I feel as if I am watching myself on the screen yelling at every second to change this and change that, but the message never reaches home. Kind of like when some people watch a horror movie and yell *DON'T GO IN...
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    A song that resonates with me.

    Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep I'm tired and I I want to go to bed Sing me to sleep Sing me to sleep And then leave me alone Don't try to wake me in the morning 'Cause I will be gone Don't feel bad for me I want you to know Deep in the cell of my heart I will feel so glad to go Sing me to...
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    Just so miserable

    Where to begin. I'll just come out and say it. I am a complete wreck. I mean I don't know what to do with myself. From the moment I wake up I am, simply put, beyond miserable. Always anxious and depressed and suicidal. My issues have kept me from doing the simplest of tasks. I can't work...
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