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  1. dannyboy65

    I am back and am returning

    I left here a few months ago or so. I'm now currently working full time as a care giver at a senior home. I also still see my life coach. Around April I stopped taking my meds. The withdrawal lasted a month and I declined in my mental health a lot. I eventually got back on my feet after that...
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    I think it's my time to leave....

    Hello, I've been on this site since 2013. I posted regularly and I liked posting here. Over the years however my mental illness has been getting worse, a lot worse. It isn't the same as social anxiety, I just feel I have been a black sheep. Inside me I have so much anger bottled up, on top of...
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    Teacher wants me to get my life sorted out

    Well today I was open with my teacher in private and told her of my mental illness. Recently it's been getting worse and worse, and it lead to me returning to smoking and losing my girlfriend who I've been dating for almost a year. I'm pushing away people and living in solitude. I told her the...
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    I'm confused with my life

    My life is very busy lately with school to be a nursing assistant and all. Where to begin. Well first of my closest and best friend is becoming distant I barely see him or talk to him now and he hangs out with my brother more then me now. I'm beginning to actually be distant to everyone, I...
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    My life as a schizophrenic

    I try so hard to block out my paranoia and hallucinations. I am aware of them and I know they aren't real, yet they never leave me alone. I take so many pills just to function. I've gone 2 months without them once before and that landed me to a mental breakdown. My illness will only get worse, I...
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    Returned to smoking

    I first started smoking when I was 15 and I smoked till I was 19. I quit for 2 years and today I picked it back up. I feel like garbage for doing it it's just I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so stressed with everything I just needed an escape and I felt like I needed this. I am so stupid...
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    Every thing is falling apart

    Well I am currently a college student, have a girlfriend, and work at a senior home. I'm failing all of my college courses, my girlfriend doesn't know what to do with me anymore, and I am falling behind at the senior home. On top of that I have no money and have to pay for the car and groceries...
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    Schizophrenia in class today

    Well I was doing schizophrenia in class today. It was so hard to see them talk about it and try to understand. I've been diagnosed when I was 17 and I was so scared to talk about it. I wanted to tell them what it's like but I just can't I don't want to be crazy to them. Then they shown a video...
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    Beyond stressed

    I've never been so stressed in my life. I have to do on the job training at nursing homes every Wednesday to Friday, while I go to my college courses on Monday and Tuesday. I never have time for friends anymore because I'm so tired and caught up in things. I don't have any money, I have about...
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    I only find joy when I am at work

    I recently started to do my on the job training in nursing homes and honestly it's the only thing in that's giving me some joy in my life. While I'm going there I live with my girlfriend who always wants my attention and it just gets on my nerves sometimes. I come back home every weekend and see...
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    I feel like this is a form of SAD

    Well for the past week I've been living at my girlfriends so I can go work in a senior home. Today I came back home till Tuesday night and I turned on my PS4 to play with my best friend who I grown up with. Well when I went to play with him he had a lobby with my brother and another close...
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    2016 game of the year for you guys?

    Hey guys now that 2016 is over I am curious to see what gamers had for game of the year? Me personally it was Doom, they made an old franchise come back to life and didn't ruin it and I respect that. It was also just a ton of fun to play and it felt how the game Doom really should be. The...
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    I'm about to burst

    This anger in me is getting worse and worse. I feel a black out about to happen. My mom wants to leave because she is a ****ing bitch. My dad acts like everything is ok, my good for nothing brother does nothing but ****ing bitches. I try to talk sense into them but nothing happens. I go to...
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    The realization that no one can help me

    I'll be honest I don't even know why I write on here anymore. I'm at a point where I just have to accept my mental illness will get worse and worse by day till the day I die, be that suicide or natural. All I know is my life will be agony, although I have a great life my own mind has destroyed...
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    I hate this feeling so much

    It's been over a god damn year since I broke up with her. I try to continue my life by doing what makes me happiest, and finding a women who treats me better then she ever did. Yet I feel ****ing miserable all of the time, It's just the strangest feeling. It's like I miss her and still care for...
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    Question for all the gamers

    I'm a pretty big gamer and I've started to collect older consoles too. I'm just curious what kind of games do you get the most fun out of? For me it's open world RPG's or action. I also seem to really enjoy more games with a rating of 7/10 or close to it. Like for example I could not get into...
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    Sites for mental health forums

    I love this site, I really do. I'm still going to post here but I need to search in other places as well. I feel I have a darkness deep inside me and I need to find answers, because the doctors won't. I need to find out why I'm so hateful inside, why I don't want people to be happy. I must care...
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    I'm self destructing inside, even when things look good for me...

    I feel it more and more everyday. I can't cry for help here so I write on here hoping someone can understand me when no one else can. I have a life a lot of people would love and I seem like someone who is really happy. I've been battling for too many years with my own mind. It's starting to get...
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    Substance abuse cravings

    Well years ago, about 4 I quit doing drugs and abusing alcohol. I was pretty much high all the time or drunk. It was a mess. I was also a smoker and recently I just hit 2 years smoke free on the 1st of December. Over last summer though I picked up drinking again and drank till I was drunk almost...
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    Stressed out about college

    I am currently going to school to be a Resident Care Worker. I'm so worried, I'm trying my absolute hardest at college. I'm trying to be independent and confident, but it's so hard. I don't fit in with anyone in my course and I have such low confidence that today my teacher told me she's worried...
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