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  1. gustavofring

    The problem of having nothing to talk about to people

    Most of the time my mind is blank when it comes to talking to people about things that regular people talk about. Years of depression and being a shut-in made my life uneventful, my experiences very limited, and my knowledge about things very basic. Cars, travelling, houses, sports, money...
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    Self-medication

    I recently have had "positive" experiences with weed. After many years of being trapped inside my little headbox and being completely stagnant in life, recently I've taken up smoking weed. Not a lot, but enough to have a little in my system during the week. I never really truly fully...
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    Difference between who I want to be and who I am

    When I'm off work, I spend gallons of time obsessing about interactions at work or in any social situation, and what kind of person I want to be and how I want to be seen by others. I get into work thinking "Today I will have this or that attitude". For example thinking about witty things to...
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    Noticing people treat me like a retard

    You know when people talk in a condescending way, as if talking to a child or someone mentally impaired, instead of as an adult/peer. I notice people do this to me at work. I usually react in a sort of cynical way, playing along. Lately I've come to sort of a realisation that people may...
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    Group situations: trouble focussing/hearing problem?

    The last few years I've had quite some trouble following group situations. Especially if there's a lot of background noise or multiple conversations going on at the same time. I first thought it may be ADD-related, or depression/anxiety related (brain fog, slow reaction time) but now I think I...
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    No smartphone = feeling like a pariah

    My smartphone broke a while ago and I have no money to replace it. In break times I feel pretty awkward as everyone is fixated on their phones and I am just staring at nothing. And they notice it too. My douchebag of a new boss even said "hey look everyone has a phone, where is yours?" What an...
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    Macho work environment

    I recently took on a job in a butchery in a large wholesaler. I work with guys who learned the trade and all. The work is okay, it's menial, but I don't mind it. I hate having to be the "new guy" so you're automatically the butt of jokes, but I will bite through that. The unfortunate thing is...
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    Sleep drains me

    That sounds weird, because sleep should have the opposite effect, but it's true. I only go to sleep very late lately, almost 3/4 am. I do try to sleep earlier but it just doesn't work, because I lay awake and my brain suddenly starts doing overtime. I literally go over all my life, every...
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    I feel like my sister is projecting her own mental illness on me

    My sister has recently been diagnosed with autism. She really seems happy about her diagnosis, as she's had a long history of burnout and depression. She told me she experienced "sensory overload" at her job, and not understanding people when they're telling her things. She needs to hear things...
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    Pretty much hit rock bottom

    I won't go into detail here, but I've pretty much hit the bottom of the barrel. I feel in the past weeks I've completely lost control of my life. There are people around me (organisations, family) who want to help me and say you have to do this and that, but I feel paralyzed because it's...
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    Menial jobs are insufferable

    I've unfortunately not been able to find a job in the field I studied in, so I mainly have been doing menial/clerk/warehouse jobs for the past few years. I find it's pretty hard to keep it up. It's mostly people that are insufferable, wether it's colleagues or customers. Atleast customers you...
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    Do you set goals?

    I'm one of those people who's always laid off things until the last moment. My life at the moment is a mess, financially as well as socially. I find that I can easily just spend days "doing things" on the computer without getting anywhere. I have low energy many times and oftentimes just can't...
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    Traffic lights

    When I am on foot and wait in front of a traffic light, and there's cars waiting, I always feel like the people in the cars are observing and judging me. That the cars of full of angry a-holes who look at me with spite or something or are discussing how big of a loser I look like. And when...
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    I don't get people who complain a lot

    Sorry for my rant in advance, and I know this is itself a complaint so I'm a hypocrite. At my job as a hotel clerk I occasionaly have to deal with complaining entitled people. I don't get why people can truly get worked up over the most pointless details. Sure, people want their money's worth...
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    Isolation and lack of daily social interaction

    Does anyone else experience that when there's been a few days without being around people, it becomes harder, you become more introverted and more prone to think negatively/be more clumsy and anxious? And that when you have a lot of social interaction it becomes easier to flow from one...
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    The illusion of seperateness

    According to Eckhart Tolle (whose teachings encompass many universal ancient teachings from Buddhism, hinduism and christianity) everything goes back to one universal essence, the source of all life, the God-essence. This is an underlying presence that is in all beings, forms and nature. Even...
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    I've taken life far too seriously for a long time

    For a long time it was like I've forgotten how to simply have fun and enjoy things, social interactions, etc. It seemed like a chore, going through the motions, feeling bothered and uptight. Questioning my every move and those of others. Lately with ups and downs and mood swings I've been able...
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    Treated like a fool

    Does anyone else sometimes have the feeling you're being treated like you're stupid or special? Like people are being nice just because they think you're troubled or lonely and are checking how you're doing? There's nothing malicious about this, they're just "being nice", but still, why not...
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    Autism

    Is it possible that symptoms of autism overlap a lot with SA and AVP? The difficulty in communicating and relating to peers especially seems to have a lot in common with SA. Also a lack of playfulness, difficulty loosening up, inability to experience joy in communication and a certain...
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    If an attractive woman makes eye contact with me

    I'm always not sure how to react. I usually flip into "there's something wrong with the way I look and that's why she stares" modus. This is because I'm severly unconfident about my looks. In my mind if I continue eye contact, she will probably roll her eyes or give a nasty look or something...
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