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  1. VioletTears

    Open Your Eyes~

    Oh so perfect, do no wrong Forget that other’s roads are long Shielded from society’s infections Spit on other’s imperfections Pretend to care because it’s a fad Laugh at those who appear to have gone mad The homeless and prostitutes, the drunks and ill All the people who have lost their will...
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    They called it depression...

    I couldn’t tell you quite how I had arrived in such a place. It was a bit like how you manage to pull into your driveway without recalling half of the turns that got you home. Perhaps I had, in some bizarre spin of events, simply been programmed to arrive there. Perhaps this was how I was meant...
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    You might be bipolar if...

    I stole this from another forum. I guess sometimes you have to laugh at yourself to avoid crying. Anyways, I'm not even diagnosed bipolar. My official diagnosis is major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety, but I do wonder if I might actually be bipolar. Anyways, here's my list...
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    Trouble metabolizing drugs... Anyone?

    Is anyone else extremely sensitive to drugs? I have had horrible and intense side effects from everything I have taken. For the past month I have been taking just 2.5 mg of Lexapro (1/4 of a pill) every other day and it still makes me nauseus if I'm not careful about eating enough and causes...
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    please help me.

    So I am on Lexapro. It's my 4th antidepressant and I hate it just like I hated the others. I'm only on 1/2 a pill every other day but it's making me an anxious mess and my therapist told me that based on her experience with partial hospitalization patients this isn't something I should wait...
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    Partial Hospitalization

    Has anyone done it? If so, how did you explain your absense to your employer and co-workers? My therapist really wants me to do this. It would by Monday-Friday for 3 weeks. I know she's right that I "need" it but I am so apprehensive about the reaction I would get at work.
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    Collage

    Peices cut from magazines From someone elses life Frilly, flowery, oh so pretty Pictures casting over lies Snipping snipping, feel them fall Spinning, spinning, down and down Decorated Fabricated The canvas beneath is emaciated Smiling faces, sweet facade Covering over chaos and rage Paste is...
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    my story... really long

    I wrote this up a couple of months ago to give to my therapist, since I tend to get tongue tied and not know what I'm suppose to say. It's so long that I don't know that anyone will read it, but since this section is here, I thought I would post it just in case... As a little girl I always...
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    I hate living

    I feel ready to break in a bad way. I don't know why I'm like this. I just get so FRANTIC. It hits me out of nowhere. I can't for the life of me figure out what even triggers this in me and I sure as hell can't figure out an escape. I hate that I can't kill myself. I really, really hate it.
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    fear of criticism...

    I wrote this on another forum and decided to post it here, too... I'm wondering if others relate... Or if other people feel judged for different reasons... I keep trying to think of an answer to WHY I think so badly of myself and worry about people judging me… I guess it’s complicated but...
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    Myspace

    Are others here on Myspace? I'm guessing there's a thread on this topic burried somewhere here but I'm just not seeing it. This is mine... http://www.myspace.com/mommy2gabriel My page is mostly a shrine to my son.
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    Do you zone out on people?

    So this is a big part of my problem... I get really distracted by stupid things when people are talking to me and so I have a hard time following a conversation. Sometimes I'm literally distracted BY my anxiety, but other times I get caught up in some detail and loose track of the...
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    affraid of becoming schizophrenic

    I have been obsessively worrying for the past couple of months that I might be on the path to developing schizophrenia. My brother has it so I know I'm at high risk, plus I have always been extremely introverted. I have been extremely anxious and depressed for months now and I'm paranoid that...
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    I got dragged to the ER yesterday...

    I don't recommend it at all, you guys... If you can find a better way to get help by all means do so... Although I guess any help is better than none at all. I guess ideally people should seek help BEFORE they reach this point. I post on another forum that I have belonged to for a long time...
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    my dog died...

    Please if anyone can't relate or understand what I'm feeling in regards to this don't reply... My dog was hit by a car a year ago. He slipped out the screen door behind my DH when he was packing the car for a trip. His pelvis was fractured and he barely made it through. We had his injuries...
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    What does your SA stem from?

    ...not that there's always a simple answer, but I'm curious about what people believe to be the source of their anxiety. In my case, I didn't have abusive parents. In fact, I can point to rather few things that my parents did wrong. The exception is that my big brother (who I now love) used...
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    I'm new... My life up until now

    Hi, I'm new here. I am going to the psychiatrist for the first time in a month and am suspecting that I will be diagnosed with AP, perhaps along with some other things... For as far back as I can remember I have felt that I was different than other people... and I guess also that I was...
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