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  1. Sial Axetder

    To Steady The Anger!

    I've been battling a newly noticed behavioural trait or an issue of some sort - anger. Right now I am of a confused mind set. It was suggested I had AvPD but also suggested I had a more Anxiety-type of issue causing depression. I don't know which one or none. Without any further confusion I...
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    Been a while!

    Haven't been around in a long while. Couldn't find the Topic Haven't-Been-On-In-Awhile. So it goes in the Off-Topic. :question: There should also be a Topic called Life. 'Cause life is bullshit! And the cause of many terrible things! Lost in frivolous endeavors. With that said, quick update...
  3. Sial Axetder

    Good evening and Good night

    Brahms Cradle Song ( Lullaby ) Op. 49, No. 4 - YouTube
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    Breaking Bad (poss spoilers)

    :thumbup: Anyone else catch that last episode? :thumbup:
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    Galaxy S4

    I am thinking of getting the Samsung Galaxy S4. Anyone here have comments, thoughts, warnings?
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    Paniced Excitment

    So much to do, laundry, food, finialize taxes, prepare luggage, spend evening with family. I was awoken by a lovely girl so I could begin my day early. Though 2 hours earlier than I expected, a wanted surprise. I am off to visit my girlfriend on Sunday. Although there is much, seemingly so...
  7. Sial Axetder

    Window is Broken

    House was broken into. Roommate's firearms were all taken. Most of my sword and dagger collection is gone. We are pretty sure it was a targeted hit for the firearms. I forgot to get the insurance set up and today I wish I had. I feel tired, untrusting, paranoid, at fault, shocked, overwhelmed.
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    Found it!!!!

    Have been a bit edgy and a PITA lately. I have been having hard times with taxes and finding the papers they want. Today I created a hurricane of papers and finally found a ruffled, old orange envelope laying on the floor. I think that's full of what they want! So I can get my 2012 taxes out...
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    Lost a friend today, I think. Maybe even two. One did not appreciate my views on how I see reality as quite negative. I do understand her reasoning as she has just begun to see positivity in her life. With her views, reality is something to look forward to. My views: look around. Death...
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    Wasn't quite sure where to throw this thread. ... I rarely, but do try, to speak my mind. But I have fear I will cause more harm than good. My automatic response is to not release thoughts and/or emotions. I let them stew and let myself deal with it all. I don't want to cause troubles with my...
  11. Sial Axetder

    Silent anger

    She is angry and outspoken. Her anger is known and voiced. I do not wish to anger her even more so I delve into a silence. When I disagree, most times I do not make it known. Would rather be silent than provoke potential arguments. Passive-aggression is crushing and debilitating for others...
  12. Sial Axetder

    Last Stand

    There is a woman I consider my special jewel. My light to openness. Three months past and she caught on to me lying and hiding. I hid myself from her, deeply afraid to lose her. Snip-its of my life did nothing to appease her appetite of my story. Three month pass and she tells me, like the...
  13. Sial Axetder

    Letting People into Your Life

    Not exactly sure why but this is a scary thing for me to allow. Example: You're getting to know someone and they have introduced their family to you without any problems aside from the initial awkwardness. When comes the time you feel you like this person, are comfortable with them and want...
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    big sigh

    I have thought long about it, about this, about what I have been told and observed. This facade of riddles and silly sentence structures I used to use. It was just that, a facade, mask to cover my opinions, emotions and real thoughts. To some an annoyance. To others a unique enjoyment of change...
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    little known

    It is a constant thought. Much research done. All pointing toward a woman thinks a man near or around the age of 30 and no real sexual, relationship experiences is, in polite words, a turn off. Words I have found to describe this man with no experiences; creep, weird...
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    Helpful Depressed

    Time. They say it heals all. With brilliant laughter, it takes time for time to heal. With spite we are forced to accepte this as helpful advice. Time and time again, don't worry so much it takes time. For the depressed we don't have luxry of time. In time we only further manage to drive...
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    Broken Pie-crust

    Promises, like pie-crust, are made to be broken.
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    Impossible Offered Help

    How can one be helped when one has an equal but opposite answer/reason to the offered help?
  19. Sial Axetder

    Fascinating It's an interesting article. Should be read I think. Women, take note, it was written by a woman. Men, no reason to gloat or point fingers or blame. That's just ungentlemanly.
  20. Sial Axetder

    Love <--<-LoveHate->--> Hate

    There is love. Can't have that without hate. We love so shall we hate. Why can't we just be? But it is sad then, is it not? No hate so shall we not have love.