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    getting some sleep while in a relationship

    For years, I have been on my own with no relationship. Maybe I just forgot what it is like. But now my boyfriend has moved in with me, and in a way I'm very happy. But it's also a bit strange. I have this problem, you see. I can't sleep until he is in bed with me, and he doesn't observe a...
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    The meaninglessness of therapy

    I have had well over a decade of psychotherapy. If I had to total it all up, I would say it was about 14 years. I don't mean to imply it was all with the same person. There were many therapists and many psychiatrists. I am just tallying up the total amount of time spent with anyone at all...
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    It's never too late to have a happy childhood.

    Return to the Teenage Brain - The New York Times
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    The effect of cell phones on our species The sight of people texting while walking, texting while...
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    Rest (and isolation)

    I am tempted to say things about this, but perhaps I should say nothing. I will note just one thing: part of the article hinted that our brains are more busy when we seem to be doing nothing. I am wondering if surfing the web actually lowers brain activity in contrast to just sitting and...
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    Dream analysis and my own dream this morning

    I just woke up, and here is a dream I had: I was in a large bus headed somewhere far off, apparently traveling from one town to another town. There were many other people in the bus. The bus driver was my childhood bus driver, but this was definitely not a school bus. I think I may have known...
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    Post what you cannot say

    I had a total of 14 years of psychotherapy, and am not aware of any benefit or any insight whatsoever. I am now 51 and feel that my life is worthless. I don't know what to do. There were also abusive and bizarre things in psychotherapy that I have trouble talking about.
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    The value of anti-therapy

    I have had lots of therapy with no benefit. Well over a decade, in fact. Now, I find an article -- in Psychology Today, no less -- which says that dwelling on the bad things in the past actually makes mental illness worse. This is the opposite of what I was led to believe in psychotherapy...
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    Report Says American Psychological Association Collaborated on Torture Justification
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    Tomorrow morning, I will see a GP and try to convince her (I think it will be a her) to prescribe me trazodone. I was on it when I was 19, and maybe also 20 (it's hard to remember). I don't recall if it helped or not, but I don't recall any side effects either. Meds I've taken since then have...
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    social anxiety is highly treatable

    Social anxiety is highly treatable. At least, this is what I read online. I wonder what people think about this? I have not found it to be treatable at all.
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    Dale Carnegie

    In my opinion, I have avoidant personality -- although I have been diagnosed with just about everything. But the only diagnosis that makes much sense is my self-diagnosis of avoidant personality. Now, I am sick and tired of all the CBT, ACT, psychoanalysis, hypnotherapy, human givens...
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    getting worse

    It suddenly dawned on me that, even though my SA was bad when I was a teen, it is actually worse now that I am 50. This is remarkable, I think, because I had many years of therapy, well over ten years actually. Is this a common experience? Does avoidance get worse as one ages?
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    I give up

    I have been trying to achieve mental health ever since I was 15, and with very little success. My OCD finally went about 20 years ago, but that happened very quickly. Reading Edna Foa's book on OCD pretty much wiped it out overnight. But that is the only success I can report. I turn 50 in a...
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    Schizoid personality

    Does anyone here think they might be schizoid? I wonder if I am.
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    Future Directed Therapy

    I wonder what anyone thinks of future directed therapy. Think Forward to Thrive: How to Use the Mind's Power of Anticipation to Transcend Your Past and Transform Your Life (Future Directed Therapy) - Kindle edition by Jennice Vilhauer PhD. Professional & Technical Kindle eBooks @ I...
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    I had well over a decade of psychotherapy, and I long lost count of how many therapists I have had. If you total up all the time spent, I would guesstimate about 14 years. Definitely more than 12. But I completely failed. I did not improve in therapy. One therapist told me this is because I...
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    I did it again

    Once again, I offended someone online, and had a comment deleted. (Not here, but elsewhere.) I don't know how I do this, but I really am disgusting. I make myself sick.
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    I took a Sudafed today, and I feel much better than usual. In fact, I think this is what normal feels like. My depression is greatly reduced, to the point of my not really being depressed. And I don't think I have social anxiety, although I haven't yet had much of a chance to test this...
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    Status And "Recent studies in industrialized societies have found that adults...