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Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Today's been a bit of a hectic day. It started out really good, got my research paper done and made brownies, all within 3 hours of waking up this morning. Felt good to relax a bit for once during the weekend. My mom got a call this morning though that her friend's husband had a heart attack and was in the hospital. I don't know him too well, but he was always nice to me whenever I saw him. Thankfully he's doing well and should be home with his family tonight.

My brother and his girlfriend came home from church today and she just found out her grandmother had passed away this morning. ::(: I went with her on Friday and the Friday before that to the hospital, plus I've gone in the past with her before to the nursing home, to see her grandma. It was always hard to be there, hospitals and nursing homes scare me, but I still went for moral support. It's really sad, but I'll admit I'm a bit relieved because she isn't suffering anymore. The last two weeks were the hardest, but even within the last year she's kept going downhill. It's hard to watch someone go through that process, and it's even harder to know and feel what the family is feeling like.
 
Starry

Starry

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It seems I am incapable of having a truly lazy day... lol

Today started out rainy and cold, so I decided after exercising all week, I deserved a day of being absolutely lazy so not even a walk... It started well, I cuddled with my husband and watched 'Doctor Who', then we listened to music and played FF XII for over three hours... Then I started to feel bad and sluggish... More music, during which time I convinced my darling husband to stop being lazy and to try a workout that someone on FB said they had been doing recently... Cue 27 minutes of 'Jillian Michaels' 30 day Shred: Level 3' (Which I got on YouTube)... A decent workout, which emphasised how much more fit than my husband I am hehehe! ^_^

So, so much for my lazy day...
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Phoenixx said:
Today's been a bit of a hectic day. It started out really good, got my research paper done and made brownies, all within 3 hours of waking up this morning. Felt good to relax a bit for once during the weekend. My mom got a call this morning though that her friend's husband had a heart attack and was in the hospital. I don't know him too well, but he was always nice to me whenever I saw him. Thankfully he's doing well and should be home with his family tonight.

My brother and his girlfriend came home from church today and she just found out her grandmother had passed away this morning. ::(: I went with her on Friday and the Friday before that to the hospital, plus I've gone in the past with her before to the nursing home, to see her grandma. It was always hard to be there, hospitals and nursing homes scare me, but I still went for moral support. It's really sad, but I'll admit I'm a bit relieved because she isn't suffering anymore. The last two weeks were the hardest, but even within the last year she's kept going downhill. It's hard to watch someone go through that process, and it's even harder to know and feel what the family is feeling like.
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I'm really sorry.
 
Opaline

Opaline

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This staying up until the birds come out and then sleeping until evening has to stop... bleeeehhhhhhhh. Messes wit cho head.
 
Invisibleman

Invisibleman

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Beatrice said:
This staying up until the birds come out and then sleeping until evening has to stop... bleeeehhhhhhhh. Messes wit cho head.
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GAHHH I know how you feel. The last 2 months ive been going to bed at broad daylight and sleeping in until 5 even 6pm.Its a habit ive been trying to break. It certainly cant be healthy,its been having such a physical toll. Im tired and feel sick all of the time,my eating patterns have been so effed that I shake and feel hungry 24/7. *sigh* I need to stop but when I have no reason to even get out of bed everyday its extremely difficult::(:
 
this_portrait

this_portrait

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My kitten has all of a sudden decided to stop using her litter box and has been going to the bathroom on the floor. Not cool. Not cool AT ALL.
 
Flanscho

Flanscho

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Went yesterday to the weekly movie evening at friends. Normally we're like six or seven people. Since one of my closer friends was out of town, I expected even fewer people to be there, since she has a huge circle of friends of which often people show up.
Instead of beeing like 4 or 5 people, there were... uhm... 14? 16? Something like that. When I arrived, several people were cooking onion-cake (like this) and apple pie, so that we wouldn't order foot from the delivery service this time.

Since I got a comfy spot though, I was mostly ok with the situation. But movie and board game evenings and the like are always more easy to handle for me, since there I got something to instead of just communicating.

This evening is a board game evening, but not sure whether I'll show up there. Tomorrow I either help a friend with moving stuff to her new flat, or I go to the social phobia support group. Oh well, a busy week is ahead.
 
Starry

Starry

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It's so dark and cold and rainy. :( It rained all day yesterday, all night ad it's STILL raining! It's nearly 9:00 in the morning and it's so dark I'm having trouble making out the letters on the keyboard... Good thing I don't need to see them lol. It's so depressing... I want sunshine!
 
Flanscho

Flanscho

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Next week I will take the train to visit my family. Normally I visit them about three times a year. Once for christmas, once in the spring (around Easter) and once in the fall (where many people in our family have their birthday).

What is always strange is the train ride there and back.

I sit in the train, in a comfy seat. It's warm and cozy, people talking quietly. The ride takes about three hours. I look through the window, and over the course of the ride, the landscape will slowly change: more hills, more forests, it'll become colder. Since it's fall, it's often cold and rainy. From my warm lit cozy place in the train, I peek outside into the grey and cold autumn weather. The forests will be dark, maybe with patches of snow shining here and there. I will hills and misty valleys pass by, as well as villages and a few cities, with lights shining through the windows.
I then often wonder what it would be like to be out there, next to the forest. Walking over the muddy paths, feeling the chilly air creep in under the clothes. The train would rush off with it's 200mp/h, and then? Silence. Dark blue sky, or maybe even darker grey sky, above me. In the very distance probably the sound of some cars, as the moist air will carry sound very well.

Or I might wonder what's going on at the houses I'm looking at, as the train rushes past them. In some, couples will be quarreling. Maybe a kid hiding in his/her room. In some others: sex. In others again, someone sitting alone in front of the TV, not noticing how the train carries me by.

With each mile, I'll associate the landscape more with home. In Stuttgart, I will have to switch trains. About 8 minutes time to do so. Not much, since the train I'll arrive with his very long, and I'll have quite a long distance to get to the next train. I'll remember dates I had in those areas, or how I spend time there with friends. Trips to the villages this train passes through, that I had with my family. The zoo, the parks, the steep vine-covered slopes of the valley the Neckar river makes it's way through.

Those trips are on the one hand calm and serene, and on the other hand depress me.
 
Starry

Starry

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^ Flanscho, there is something wonderfully homely and calming in that post. I can't put my finger on what exactly, but it made me feel comfortable internally, like sitting by the fire on a cold winter's day with a wonderful book.
 
Flanscho

Flanscho

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Thanks for the nice comments. Sometimes people tell me to write, and I guess in my native language, I might even create something that wouldn't be that horrible. But it takes practice and... well, I just feel that the job and everything strip me of the peace and serenity I'd need to free my mind enough to put my thoughts into words that ain't just meaningful but also beautiful to read.

But maybe those are just excuses. Some day I'll find the time. :)
 
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