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That is a good interpretation if you ask me! Life is much easier before I get out of bed ::p:
Yaha, getting into bed to go to sleep at night is my favourite part of each day. :thumbup:

My brain knows it has 7-8 hours of...... peace and quiet!!
It can completely rest.

Not having anyone or anything demanding/forcing it to have to do stressful/exhausting things. It can close all of the many files it has to have open and ready during all of the other 16 hours of each day. Bliss!

Until my eyes open and.... its daylight! :crying:
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
Sitting outside of work, 15 mins until I sign on.
As I drive to work each day I always think about how I'd really like my life to be.
 

Kiwong

Well-known member
I don't quite understand why people who are suffering so much from loneliness, have such a desire to be with someone, when all atound them is evidence of those going through relationship issues and painful breakups.

I can see myself how good connecting with someone is great when it goes well. It is like all the lights go and there is a buzzing in your soul. I think they're great, and we think on the same wave length. You float a little on air, heart rate rises. Someone thinks I am Ok, I am not alone.

But those times are rare, and being around people is like 4 seasons in one day, with tsunamis, stormd, floods, drought, pestulence. I am beginning to understand that the trick is to look at people and be more tolerant of their idiosyncracies, and my own. The thing is I am more likely to experirnce peace and happiness on my own. People are good in small doses, it is not long before complication sets in and I am screaming to escape somewhere by myself

There are a people around me who break up and then immediately want to get together with someone else, and go through similar ptoblems all over sgain.

Then there is the pain of loss. You fall in love hard, and it ends. The pain of loss and grief is unbearable. The worst pain, you gain love, and the more you love, the worse the pain of loss is. Why go thtough that again?

I suppose life is about those times things go well, and happiness, love, inspiration achievement, peace come into your life, even if those moments are rare.
 
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I don't quite understand why people who are suffering so much from loneliness, have such a desire to be with someone, when all atound them is evidence of those going through relationship issues and painful breakups.

I can see myself how good connecting with someone is great when it goes well. It is like all the lights go and there is a buzzing in your soul. I think they're great, and we think on the same wave length. You float a little on air, heart rate rises. Someone thinks I am Ok, I am not alone.

But those times are rare, and being around people is like 4 seasons in one day, with tsunamis, stormd, floods, drought, pestulence. I am beginning to understand that the trick is to look at people and be more tolerant of their idiosyncracies, and my own. The thing is I am more likely to experirnce peace and happiness on my own. People are good in small doses, it is not long before complication sets in and I am screaming to escape somewhere by myself

There are a people around me who break up and then immediately want to get together with someone else, and go through similar ptoblems all over sgain.

Then there is the pain of loss. You fall in love hard, and it ends. The pain of loss and grief is unbearable. The worst pain, you gain love, and the more you love, the worse the pain of loss is. Why go thtough that again?

I suppose life is about those times things go well, and happiness, love, inspiration achievement, peace come into
your life, even if those moments are rare.
Well said, Kiwong! :thumbup:

Our amazing brains seem to be hell-bent on hanging onto anything that has proven to help us....survive.
Through the ages, living constantly around - in large groups - and in close quarters with other humans, has been a necessity for your survival.

In the modern world today - in first world countries - an individual can easily survive, without having to be around other humans 24 hours a day, day in and day out.

However our brains won't let go of the instinctual urge to seek out the acceptance, and company, of other humans.

And when we find "love" with some other human, that "love" then creates a bond, which kind of guarantees that acceptance and company - that our brains still think we need for survival - for an extended period of time into the future.........

......until you end up having arguments/fights that are so bad, you end up hating each other, and separate/divorce, lol :bigsmile:
 
Well said, Kiwong! :thumbup:

Our amazing brains seem to be hell-bent on hanging onto anything that has proven to help us....survive.
Through the ages, living constantly around - in large groups - and in close quarters with other humans, has been a necessity for your survival.

In the modern world today - in first world countries - an individual can easily survive, without having to be around other humans 24 hours a day, day in and day out.

However our brains won't let go of the instinctual urge to seek out the acceptance, and company, of other humans.

And when we find "love" with some other human, that "love" then creates a bond, which kind of guarantees that acceptance and company - that our brains still think we need for survival - for an extended period of time into the future.........

......until you end up having arguments/fights that are so bad, you end up hating each other, and separate/divorce, lol :bigsmile:

Well said, BlueDays! :thumbup:
 

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
Way to go, Wong. :D

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Lionhearted

Well-known member
If there were only some very good ways to make a commute more enjoyable. I don't like it when you just get so much accustomed to something/some situation, that it becomes boring - except for the 'rare exception moments'. There comes a time when you'll be able to think just about anything(and I mean it in the negative sense), because you're just simply sitting, and doing nothing but gazing at the passing scenery.

It's a 45-minute journey by bus, and I know the way like the back of my hand. I get into the bus, thinking "Okay, I'll try to think of some great ideas for the story I'm writing," and I end up just doing what I end up doing exactly what I mentioned before: Gazing absent mindedly at the scenery. I do feel guilty for not accomplishing anything of value, in those 45 minutes everyday.
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
If there were only some very good ways to make a commute more enjoyable. I don't like it when you just get so much accustomed to something/some situation, that it becomes boring - except for the 'rare exception moments'. There comes a time when you'll be able to think just about anything(and I mean it in the negative sense), because you're just simply sitting, and doing nothing but gazing at the passing scenery.

It's a 45-minute journey by bus, and I know the way like the back of my hand. I get into the bus, thinking "Okay, I'll try to think of some great ideas for the story I'm writing," and I end up just doing what I end up doing exactly what I mentioned before: Gazing absent mindedly at the scenery. I do feel guilty for not accomplishing anything of value, in those 45 minutes everyday.

Its actually a healthy thing to do each day, daydream.
Its time for the brain to zone out, have down time.
Perhaps you could use that 45 mins and just happily zone out?
 

MollyBeGood

Well-known member
So today I went a forum with about 60 people. I spoke to my point about needing to consider biodiversity conservation - communities, species and genetic levels not species in isolation. It was well recieved.

I'd say you have made some great progress, Kiwong! Doing something like that and having it well received is very awesome! I wish I could have heard it. (also being an interesting topic)

Me-I cannot image doing that!
... The anxiety during the build up alone would be SOO massive ...:eek:mg:

But I am thinking about pursuing a singing gig and it is going to take a lot of courage and some real help from God above. I wish it were not so hard. But I DO know it would be 100% worth the victory. I have done it before I can do it again. :)
 

Kiwong

Well-known member
Thanks Molly, i have had some wins this year, which has surprised me. I am using and exposure approach, where you put yourself into it, rather than avoiding it. It seems to be working, still frightening though. But I sense myself changing some social skills are returning
Good luck with singing gig, that does sound exciting, Id love to be able sing. SInging and playing is fun and a good escape ftom troubles. You have to focus on getting the chords and words right, and get lost in the feeling of songs you like.
 
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vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
I opened SPW today, and felt like I imagine I would if I were to walk into a McDonald's only to realize I am in a country without McDonald s and in fact just walked into a "MacDonnies".
 

lily

Well-known member
i just changed back to the old style now that you mentioned it but i want to change it back like back and forth. how do i do that? i like the SPW You are not alone part that's deleted..
 
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