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Waste time: There is an art to doing nothing. The mind tries to keep people running towards something or away from something. The hardest thing for most people to do is nothing.
 

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
I'v had a crush on Melissa Joan Hart since the 90's.



anyway, Just needed to admit that. lol

Nothing to be ashamed of whatsoever.

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In my dreams, Fairuza wouldn't Balk, ha ha.
 
I'm not really becoming less fearful of life, but more that i'm fearing death less and less. That is, death is becoming more real as a possibility, which is good in itself, but also as it means i'm losing my attachment to earthly things.
 
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^Sorry, I could not resist!! LOL :bigsmile: :rolleyes:

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At least the patheticnessness of my post made me laugh. You know your at the end of the rope when you want to jump off a tall building, but you are just laughing, when you should be crying. :/
 
At least the patheticnessness of my post made me laugh. You know your at the end of the rope when you want to jump off a tall building, but you are just laughing, when you should be crying. :/

Oh you're definately not alone on spw in feeling pathetic!

I'm kinda at the end of my rope also. Playing death metal, and all i can really think of is how i wish i could top myself right here & now; a loaded gun would be perfect right about now (i'd be SORELY tempted to pull the trigger). I'm all alone & bored to faackin buggery - my usual state of mind; there seems no answer, but death. I wonder if i'll reach of point where i'm just literally sick-to-death of all this bullsh1t, & feel actually suicidal like i did for several months a year or so ago (& actually work on my plan for my death) :question:
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Ah hate how my family keep sayin' tae me that we need to get my room uncluttered, when we do f**k all about it. Hardly surprising though, as I'm the only yin who actually want to get stuff done. :eek:h: They'd rather talk about doing something, but never doing it. Then complaining about why they've seem to find the time to get stuff sorted. Eh?! :confused: :idontknow:

Don't ye hate when ye think ya can rely upon somebuddy and they end up being two-faced, big useless f**kin' sack o' piss n' wind? And the worst o' it is, they blame me fur no tidying up. Kinda difficult to keep a room tired when yer crammed intae a wee room. :kickingmyself:
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
The level of utter stupidity I have to put up with from my family... :kickingmyself:
I'm beginning to understand why Gordon Ramsay is such a foul-mouthed, savage c*nt on Hell's Kitchen. :veryangry:
 
Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day
Fritter and waste the hours in an off-hand way
Kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town
Waiting for someone or something to show you the way

Tired of lying in the sunshine staying home to watch the rain
You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun

And you run and you run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you're older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death

Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over, thought I'd something more to say
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
R.I.P. Chester Bennington of Linkin Park. Another one gone. :eek: :sad:

Just quickly did a search for an article. Bennington took his own life, yesterday, July 20th, on what would've been Chris Cornell's 53rd birthday. :crying: And those 2 were good friends.


You couldn't have picked a better age mate.

While I get where yer coming from, saying this, I have to disagree. 41 isn't that old. But then I'm nearly 30. :idontknow:
 
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I made a friend and he's awesome. We're spending, like, all of our time together. He's intelligent, funny, cute... We agreed to be friends, but the lines are blurring. I don't want a boyfriend, but I feel like we're heading in that direction. We have such a good rapport - we talk like no one else exists. I don't know what's going to happen (especially since we're going to school), but I am having so much fun. He makes my life better :)
 
I made a friend and he's awesome. We're spending, like, all of our time together. He's intelligent, funny, cute... We agreed to be friends, but the lines are blurring. I don't want a boyfriend, but I feel like we're heading in that direction. We have such a good rapport - we talk like no one else exists. I don't know what's going to happen (especially since we're going to school), but I am having so much fun. He makes my life better :)
^Good on you for following through on such a promising social interaction, Sarah_M! That takes bravery. I hope it works out for you! :thumbup:



WTF! This world is going down the drain quicker than I thought. A poor 5 year old girl and her father in Britain have been fined £180 by the local council for holding a lemonade stall!!!

The father said when the councillors handed him the paperwork for the fine, at their lemonade stall, his little girl started crying! :sad:

The father tweeted...
"Took 5 year old daughter to end of our road to run lemonade stand. Fined £180. She's now sobbing, 'I did a bad thing'. Thx"
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While I get where yer coming from, saying this, I have to disagree. 41 isn't that old. But then I'm nearly 30. :idontknow:

Why i say that is due to my life beginning its descent into hell at ~40-41 yrs. Still trying to get out of this pit of misery 5 years later. Those 2 years especially, i was very suicidal, often every day, for those 2/so years. So i can kinda understand how some other guy could be similarly-afflicted at that age. A few years ago a distant relative of mine killed himself over a separation, at age 40. I don't know specifically what Chester was going through, whether it was depression or something else, but it was something major.
 
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