Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

My favorite video game was just released today and I bought it. Take care of my adult responsibilities today or play all day? This is a tough choice.

I lost a photo of me surrounded by baby deer. I know it's somewhere on this forum!!!

People keep stopping me while I'm walking at the park and asking me questions.
Like yesterday this woman stopped an asked if I knew where the soccer field was with kids playing soccer.
I said "yea, it's that way" and pointed in the direction. She said "thanks" and drove off.
Then I saw her drive around the park aimlessly at least three times. One time she waved at me but didn't stop.
Then this couple stopped me on this road in the park and asked if they were driving on the walking trail.
I said "no, it's just a road. You can drive here."

S_Spartan said:

People keep stopping me while I'm walking at the park and asking me questions.
Like yesterday this woman stopped an asked if I knew where the soccer field was with kids playing soccer.
I said "yea, it's that way" and pointed in the direction. She said "thanks" and drove off.
Then I saw her drive around the park aimlessly at least three times. One time she waved at me but didn't stop.
Then this couple stopped me on this road in the park and asked if they were driving on the walking trail.
I said "no, it's just a road. You can drive here."

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Are you still in PA? Those people sound lost wow...
Were you wearing an official looking outfit perhaps? lol :idontknow:

I'm watching black dynamite right now and this movie is SO good but in a really retarded way.

I can't believe iv never seen it before.

Kiwong said:

Amygdala, what is it good for, absolutely nothing, say it again.

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"When the amygdala perceives a threat, it can lead that person to react irrationally and destructively". :thumbdown:

theslowesthand said:

"When the amygdala perceives a threat, it can lead that person to react irrationally and destructively". :thumbdown:

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All this talk about the amygdala is starting to give me a desire to study it closer...I have an advanced degree in health science and don't know much about that organ. I do know that studies have been conducted in the past on the amygdala on people undergoing brain surgery. When they stimulated the patients amygdala the patients reported feelings of intense fear and insecurity. But when they asked the same "feelings" questions to people that lost their function in the amygdala the patients recognized every emotion except for fear. I bet cavemen millions of years ago got a lot of use out of their amygdala's when they had to run away from a lion or tiger they heard in the bushes, lol...fear is good for passing on genes sometimes. Irrational fear on the other hand like y'all are referring to though? Yea, I agree with that...f*ck you amygdala.

Feeling over the top and angry - kinda fed up annoyed - frustrated- always coming and going using all my resources and everyone wants a piece of me - just want my space and completely hate my partners lifestyle and values tastes - I want to spend time in my own world. I feel I've lost my identity. I didn't want to have to go in my car again and go for a drive with him driving my car and then to have hot chips at 11:00 in the morning. And he actually used his change all the money he has of $8 plus a $1 from me to get the chips. Then of course I had to give him money for a drink - hope I get my change back. He has zero money but to spend on his chronic smoking habit. Every time I go to the shops it's can I have an ice coffee etc., i drive over to his place - up steep hills in my tiny one cylinder type car (Daewoo matiz) and yet his brand new car he borrows from his sister (she doesn't drive - panic attacks) - it's a good car with the grunt to get up those hills - yet he doesn't fill up his petrol - only with a tiny amount of $2 worth just barely the red zone in the gator. So always using my car still and my money still - he tried to be kind and all that - but he just had no money . And the other RBI g is when I'm at my place he gets bored and feels uncomfortable and so I feel hijacked with my time - I don't like his way of living I like mine - yet I stop all my things to be with him. Don't want to go back snd fourth all the time. I hate his smoking and I hate all this - it's too much of me - and when I push my way - and just do it my way - a surge of emotions come and it's a lot of energy . It's not just him but my family and even animals. Need my space

grapevine said:

Feeling over the top and angry - kinda fed up annoyed - frustrated- always coming and going using all my resources and everyone wants a piece of me - just want my space and completely hate my partners lifestyle and values tastes - I want to spend time in my own world. I feel I've lost my identity. I didn't want to have to go in my car again and go for a drive with him driving my car and then to have hot chips at 11:00 in the morning. And he actually used his change all the money he has of $8 plus a $1 from me to get the chips. Then of course I had to give him money for a drink - hope I get my change back. He has zero money but to spend on his chronic smoking habit. Every time I go to the shops it's can I have an ice coffee etc., i drive over to his place - up steep hills in my tiny one cylinder type car (Daewoo matiz) and yet his brand new car he borrows from his sister (she doesn't drive - panic attacks) - it's a good car with the grunt to get up those hills - yet he doesn't fill up his petrol - only with a tiny amount of $2 worth just barely the red zone in the gator. So always using my car still and my money still - he tried to be kind and all that - but he just had no money . And the other RBI g is when I'm at my place he gets bored and feels uncomfortable and so I feel hijacked with my time - I don't like his way of living I like mine - yet I stop all my things to be with him. Don't want to go back snd fourth all the time. I hate his smoking and I hate all this - it's too much of me - and when I push my way - and just do it my way - a surge of emotions come and it's a lot of energy . It's not just him but my family and even animals. Need my space

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While I get the whole needing one's space n' all. Now... and please don't take umbrage with what I'm about to say. And apologises if it's a wee bit sweary, but...


Though, I might have the wrong impression? I'm saying break-up with him. It just, that post I replied to the other day; and this one mentioning lifestyle and values. Again, I don't know yer situation, so sorry if I'm jumping the gun here. Plus, the whole losing yer identify. Sounds to me like ye gave up a lot o' yerself to be with this guy, no? :idontknow:

Not judging, but it's how it comes across, reading that post.

I know, when it comes to relationships, we've all got habits that the other person hates. But they're usually wee trival things. The kind shit ye use against the person in an argument... or that might just be my family who frequently do that? :question:

Though, I can definitely relate to having stop everything I'm doing to being forced to interact socially with someone. Usually, in my case, it's spending time with my dysfunctional family. :kickingmyself:

Sorry if this got a wee bit too personal. Didnae mean for it to be.

grapevine said:

... i drive over to his place - up steep hills in my tiny one cylinder type car (Daewoo matiz) and ...

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Don't mean to nitpick, but i had to check on that car on web, and i think what u meant is it's a 1 litre car, not 1 cylinder (it'll have either 3 or 4 cylinders). I couldn't believe your car could have 1 cylinder - as most motorbikes have that.

theslowesthand said:

Don't mean to nitpick, but i had to check on that car on web, and i think what u meant is it's a 1 litre car, not 1 cylinder (it'll have either 3 or 4 cylinders). I couldn't believe your car could have 1 cylinder - as most motorbikes have that.

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Its basically powered by hamsters spinning a wheel. The fuel is cucumber slices and slim jims.

Graeme1988 said:

I really need to start drinking again. I think it's my only way I can cope with my family's constant negative BS. :sad: :kickingmyself:

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I've been on SPW a little while now and I have read a lot of the stuff you post.
It sounds to me like you definitely need a different way to cope with your situation. Drinking?Ignoring the BS? Learning to laugh at the BS? I don't know... I hope you find something that helps you out mate.

It is raining, it is pouring
My mind's so bored, it is snoring
It's not so early it's morning
Nor so late that i'm yawning
Aah, creativity, this poem i am spawning

Don't know what i want my life to be
Should it be just me, or me and a devotee?
But anything except the staus quo i just cannot see
Will my life stay safe & dull & empty
Or will it end suddenly, at an apogee?
I expect it to carry on being crappy
Devoid of any life, like the dead sea
For so long i have wished to be happy & carefree
But instead what i've had is a life that is beastly
For much of it, i might as well have been out at sea
Life will always be a battle when inner ruler & emotional self constantly disagree
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(PiP, Poetry in Progress ... < SUSPENDED >)

theslowesthand said:

My mind's so bored, it is snoring

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:lol::lol::lol:

PugofCrydee said:

I've been on SPW a little while now and I have read a lot of the stuff you post.
It sounds to me like you definitely need a different way to cope with your situation. Drinking?Ignoring the BS? Learning to laugh at the BS? I don't know... I hope you find something that helps you out mate.

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Well, moving out would be my best option. But they wouldnae know what to do without me. :idontknow:

Anyways, if I ignore the BS then my family calls me cold, withdrawn n' indifferent. Laugh at it, like I did a few weeks ago with my mum - I'm a c*nt. But that's another story, needless to say it ended up with me in tears from laughing so much.

I mean, Christ, ah cannae even offer my perspective. It being "bloody stoopid". Since, me saying them arguing and complaining aw the time isn't going make things better. But, apparently, that truth doesnae quite get through to them.

Yet, I have to listen to my mum call another member o' my family, usually cousins or in-laws "...f**kin' bitch" or a "selfish b@$%@:!". The latter of those being a frequent terms for the men o' the family. Myself included. So, cannae really win, ether way.

Since I'm suppose to be the male feminist and f**kin' agree with everything the wimmin in my immediate family say, unquestioningly. Or else they breakdown in tears and accuse me of being a bully when I offer an opinion that doesnae conform to theirs. :crying:
Not even exaggerating when I say that, either.

Unless. of course. you can suggest a better way o' coping with the dysfunction around me? I'm option tae yer suggestions, Pug. Because, beyond drinking, and spending time in my bedroom cranking thrash-metal tunes on my stereo and attempting to compose my own instrumental music, ah cannae think o' anything else. :sad:

Looks like spw has changed over to https now... :thumbup:

I'll miss the old icon though :sad:

Look like I'll be spending ma birthday still enduring this ingrown toenail on left foot. As I've done the last week and a half. It's ma big tae as well. :crying: Sure puts that surgery in perspective.

That's what ah get for thinking my big sister is knowledgeable when it comes to podiatry. Bloody prodding away at the hard skin build-up on my big left toe, but she didnae listen when ah telt her it wus sore. :kickingmyself:

Something shite seems to happen to me aroon this time o' year. Last year I got the flu. Now, I can barely f**kin' walk. Oh jing! Better stop complaining, ah cun feel masel' aboot tae huv a flashback...

Another wet day, just waiting it out
Have no transport so i cannot go out
Could do with another place to hang-out
A new way to pass the day, another route
For now i could play darts, might help me to chill-out

One thing i can do with the time - poetry
Something that takes my mind off the drudgery
Allows me to use my ingenuity
Though it's not really a hobby, like rocketry
Others can enjoy my verse, supposedly
Maybe it also helps others unknowingly
It can help me with my mood definately
Puts me in a lighthearted mood, most notably
It almost makes me feel all warm & fuzzy
There's humour in words pieced together clumsily
Helps to get through the day a bit less woefully!

So, it's 5pm, and i'm waiting for the day to end (tho it's barely begun tbh)
Until 6pm it is just 1 hour to misspend
When it's 6pm, i shall start this process again
I don't live near shops, else i'd surely overspend (just saying; & it rhymes)
I'm not in the mood for reading or study, i don't want to comprehend
I don't have a girlfriend, myself on whom they depend
I just can't seem to find the right woman to befriend (or any for that matter!)
If i did, i'm sure i'd enjoy the feelings towards her which i would extend
If i didn't live alone, i wonder if i'd have all the troubles of which i currently contend?
If i ever did find someone, i'm sure there'd be no end to the belief which i'd suspend!
Though it might be very difficult for me to, another person, append
But overall, it just might be a godsend??? :question:

Another car, busy busy, people going here & there
If i had transport, i wonder if i could similarly gain some cheer?
Out in the country, you need a car, as nothing is near
Yet not so far in the what-what's that you could ride a mare

Feels like i'm shovelling time straight into the sewage pit
Feels like my time is "counterfeit"
Poor-quality time, that's it!
Wish i could grab hold of a real live t*t
Yep, could be feeling better, just a bit

Nighttime, listening to metal, just killing time
Wondering what sheep think of it, they seem fine
Vektor (Terminal Redux) KICKS A5S in this space-time
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(PiP, Poetry in Progress ... < SUSPENDED >)

Graeme1988 said:

Well, moving out would be my best option. But they wouldnae know what to do without me. :idontknow:

Anyways, if I ignore the BS then my family calls me cold, withdrawn n' indifferent. Laugh at it, like I did a few weeks ago with my mum - I'm a c*nt. But that's another story, needless to say it ended up with me in tears from laughing so much.

I mean, Christ, ah cannae even offer my perspective. It being "bloody stoopid". Since, me saying them arguing and complaining aw the time isn't going make things better. But, apparently, that truth doesnae quite get through to them.

Yet, I have to listen to my mum call another member o' my family, usually cousins or in-laws "...f**kin' bitch" or a "selfish b@$%@:!". The latter of those being a frequent terms for the men o' the family. Myself included. So, cannae really win, ether way.

Since I'm suppose to be the male feminist and f**kin' agree with everything the wimmin in my immediate family say, unquestioningly. Or else they breakdown in tears and accuse me of being a bully when I offer an opinion that doesnae conform to theirs. :crying:
Not even exaggerating when I say that, either.

Unless. of course. you can suggest a better way o' coping with the dysfunction around me? I'm option tae yer suggestions, Pug. Because, beyond drinking, and spending time in my bedroom cranking thrash-metal tunes on my stereo and attempting to compose my own instrumental music, ah cannae think o' anything else. :sad:

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Well I'm not too sure. But Is there anything you can do to get out away from them? even if it's just for a couple of hours regularly on a saturday night? You could arrange to taxi down to a cinema, catch a flick or two. :question: I'm sure you'd appreciate the down time/breathing space and maybe even look forward to it.

i live about 10minutes outside of town/away from the freeway....its a nice rural area and its surrounded by woods ..which is ideal. ...but I can still hear the distant humming sound of the freeway when I go outside in the yard, to get the mail, go for a walk, etc.....I dont like that...I want to live somewhere where there are hardly ANY sounds of commerce/the rat race and all you can hear are the trees , birds, and nature in general..and maybe some wind chimes and the sound of my guitar also.