I wasn't able to make any 'friends' until highschool.
I sat at the nerd table-- they took me in with open arms after I was asked:
Pedich Edhellen?
and I responded:
Nostach be Orch gaer-- not that you smell, really... but that's all I know. haha
Ohhh, LOTR... :
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In grade 10, I went through some trauma and became agoraphobic. For grades 10 and 11 and part of 12, I didn't go to school more than one day per month and still, I managed to keep up with clubs, my studies and assignments.
I was in Yearbook, A/V, Young Writers, Anime club, Drama club... and I feel like I'm leaving some out but that honestly seems like a million years ago, so my memory is terrible! haha
I was a good student, somehow. Kept up above average grades. My teachers liked me.... except Mr. M. He was a poophead.
I was still bullied but to a lesser extent than in elementary school because people were moreso scared of me/ thought I was psycho and not the easiest target.
I worked 3 jobs (4-5 sometimes)all through highschool and managed to keep working most days even when I was agoraphobic because I needed to keep paying half the rent and utilities.
I was really sick in grade 12 and had to stay at the hospital for a couple of months. No one came to see me. haha
I graduated with everyone else, but something happened to keep me from leaving and going to college-- I stayed for an extra year; a 'victory lap' as it's called... continued to work even more than before- gained some extra credits, created a portfolio of work to submit with my college applications.
There was a new group of 'nerds' who were mostly made up of people I didn't know and kind of found to be loud and obnoxious, so I mostly stayed in the art room at lunch and worked on my sculptures on days I wasn't working at noon.
Nothing overly exciting happened that year--- other than; my boyfriend of 5 years dumping me for a week; then coming back and apologizing; begging for me back. Don't know what happened there-- never really questioned it.
School ended- I left town to move to the city and start at my choice college.
Sounds nice, right?
It only got worse from there. haha
I don't look back on highschool being terrible; although it was terrifying for me to be near people and no one understood agoraphobia and thought I was just 'faking sick to not go to school'. I still got picked on- still was physically and verbally beaten- still got called ugly and stupid on a regular basis.
But I thought myself an adult and put up with everything.
Highschool can be the best or worst time of your life-- but it's not the end of the road; only the beginning.