Scottish_Player
Well-known member
At one time in my life i would be very secrative about myself and mylife to other people when speaking to them, but now i find myself just talking TOO openly and i hate it, i go away from the conversation regreating so many things that i have said and wish i didnt and not realy knowing why i said them.
One of the reasons i feel i do it is because i can talk openly on this forum and people understand and reply but outside people just give me that look or just pretend they know what iam talking about just to stop me looking stupid, i dont want to go back to my secrative self, i also feel iam doing it in the hope i find someone out there who truely understands me, i feel so fucked up just now, i ve had a brilliant past 2 weeks just feeling good and feeling on top of things for once and then this afternoon it just hit me again going back to the old "pretending to be happy" me.
One of the reasons i feel i do it is because i can talk openly on this forum and people understand and reply but outside people just give me that look or just pretend they know what iam talking about just to stop me looking stupid, i dont want to go back to my secrative self, i also feel iam doing it in the hope i find someone out there who truely understands me, i feel so fucked up just now, i ve had a brilliant past 2 weeks just feeling good and feeling on top of things for once and then this afternoon it just hit me again going back to the old "pretending to be happy" me.