Oh no, here we go again.

Well, happy xmas and new year spw'ers. =] and hope you all got trhu xmas fine etc

But now it's back to the same old moaning, the fact i was completely alone through xmas, and will be thru new year, sat at the pc, Staying up all night and sleeping in the day, coz there's just no point in life.

Today right now i've had a bad mood turn again, so i'm saying i'll snap out of this next year, will i feck!

Tell ya the truth, the only reason i even stick around on the internet is because i thought maybe one day i'd make a friend. and not one. I've never made one friend on the internet, let alone in real life where i've also none.

I know these people, online, want me to say i did something rly great, but y'knw i'm not even going to lie, why should i, they'll all stop bothering with me eventually anyways, they all do. But i'm no fricking fun! I'm not a party girl the kind that most girls my age are. i am boring, lonely, no fun.
I can't talk to people on chatrooms now etc cos the big question that always pops up is, yeah you got it! 'What you doing for new year?' **** all is what.

Why? cos i ain't got anyone or anything. and i never will.
You know what? no wonder i'm alone.

This month was the month i didn't go out for over 3 weeks. Making that the longest i've ever stayed in. And you know, when i went out i didn't even feel happier. I jst wanted back to my house again, back to my safe room.

who cares what they think if you say you didnt do anything, if they were even remotely a potential or true friend they wouldnt judge you and if they do say something it'll probably be sarcastic and in fun taste! like they might say "aww you're no fun" ...the problem is how we or you react to them. you cant allow a response to change your mood or make you feel negative. you need to just laugh it off and think that if you do really want to go somewhere or do something then just do it but if you wanted to stay indoors then that is also fine. its more important that you try to enjoy yourself no matter where you are, just try and live in the moment and twist sircumstances that seem negative into funny situations. don't be afraid to stuff up or speak your mind anywhere you are in the world at any time.

if you want to make a friend or two then its a simple solution. write down what interests you have in terms of sports or playing an instrument or drawing, join a club in those fields or just get out more, go anywhere that is populated and approach strangers with a happy attitude, go to a festival or a concert. go to the city, apply for a couple of part time jobs and meet people that way.

the process of making new friends is going to painful but surely its worth searching for the slightest chance that you might meet the friend of your dreams, like someone who you click with easily.

you need to see rejection as a positive step. its all about hard work but the rewards will be worth it.

Im not doing anything for newyears and Id never ask you what you are doing for newyears. Msg me if you want to chat sometime on MSN or AIM, not just the OP but anyone. Im always up for new friends.