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4 days.... I wonder if that’s The longest period my older sister has gone without causing a f*ckin’ rammy? Angry, pointless arguments seem to be her skill.

Anyway, on Tuesday just past there, my older sister lost over the oldest sibling making change to Skype app on my 3 year old niece’s Samsung tablet. Dinnae ask... cuz ah don’t why, either! Apparently that the app couple’s use if they want to see their kids, but cannae be there with them in person.

So, after threatening to take oot a mafia hit on the eldest sibling, “Am gonnae f*ckin’ kill her, so ah um! What tha f*ck’s she went n’ done tae the Skype oan this tablet?!”. Aw hell breaks loose. With the older sister regress back to her teenager. Tell her 3 year daughter (my niece) to...
”Shut tha f*ck up!! Am trying tae fix this!! Go away, am bloody sick o’ you!”
Which, needless to say, pissed me off.
Oh, but then, the moment really made me lose it. In middle of this technological catastrophe, our mother asks about dinner. Wrong move...
”D’ye want yer dinner?”
“No!”
, my older sister snaps
”Awrite! Ah wus only asking! Nae need tae be like that”, my mother says angrily.
“Aw, ah dinnae want ma f*ckin’ dinner anyway!! Sticking up yer f*ckin’ arse!”
There’s a slight pause, and am thinking: Aww f*ck... somebuddy gone storm off in tears in a moment.
But, no, my mother gives a totally apt, sarcastic response.
”Stick it up ma arse? Ah’ll try, but it’ll probably no fit”
^ And that’s why dysfunctional family are great... hysterically funny, surreal moments like that.

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And from laughter we going right back to tragedy... Why does the happiness never last?

I genuinely donít think Iíll be alive come this time next year. Thatís no me making a cry for help r being overly dramatic. I seriously donít think Iíll be around much longer. Iím just... a broken man. Growing up with toxic, dysfunctional people will make ye that way. Itís just how it is.

But Iíve just had enough... Nuthiní matters. Naebuddy seems to care. Ah mean none of them give a f*ck that I even exist, so why not make it permanent? Cuz that only time folk ever seem to genuinely care... when itís too late.

But hey, who gives a flying f*ck if one of my earliest memories is my family arguing. Thatís not in any way significant. That doesnae play into my personality of being the shy, quiet, bookish loner. Or my avoidant, anti-social tendencies on later in life. Nothing to do with the fact an argument can ensue based on something stupidly trival.

Aw wait, ah forgot! Itís totally normal for families tae huv massive arguments where yer just roaring ní shouting ní swearing at each other over dumb, mundane shite on a daily basis.

And my oldest sister says she doesnae think the middle child is aware of hurt she causes. Well... f*ck me, Iím a virgin! How many years did it take for ye cop onto that yin, sis? Did ya just notice last week or summit? Ah couldíve telt ya that back when ah wus 14...!

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Iíve been finding it quite difficult to be happy or enjoy things lately.

Guess I havenít full come to terms with what happened last year.
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I’ve been finding it quite difficult to be happy or enjoy things lately.

Guess I haven’t full come to terms with what happened last year.
Borrowing your quote...

I’ve been finding it quite difficult to be happy or enjoy things in the last decade especially, but also for my whole life.

Guess I haven’t full come to terms with what's happened during my life?

'Oooooooooh it makes me wonder'

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Iíve been finding it quite difficult to be happy or enjoy things in the last decade especially, but also for my whole life.

Guess I havenít full come to terms with what's happened during my life?

'Oooooooooh it makes me wonder'
Yeah, I can relate. And certain experiences do impact and stay with us.

Though Iíve not found it as difficult as you in terms of enjoying things, I guess I feel more guilty for doing so. Since, to most folk, my life is pretty ĒeasyĒ.
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Though Iíve not found it as difficult as you in terms of enjoying things, I guess I feel more guilty for doing so.
Yeah, i barely enjoy anything at all these days. And i find it impossible to deeply relax. The two may be related.

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Since, to most folk, my life is pretty ĒeasyĒ.
Annoyingly, most folk judge on outer/shallow appearances, but they have NO IDEA what the HELL you're going thru with mental health.
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