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My older sisters have fallen out... again! Not talking to each other They just cannot get along, ataw.

Then they'll fall out with me and our mother, cuz we refuse to take sides. Which will lead to us being accused of taking sides when we trying to see things from a netural, outsider perspective. "Oh, yer aw pickin' oan me!" Pathetic like. Cannae f*ckin' win!

Ah just how tae f*ck they aw - but ma Mum, in particular - see me different efter aw this? Aw them years past when ah got accused of being difficult, intimidatin' and violatile. But that's just par for the course when yer big, beardy bloke, innit? Oh, dinnae make 'em angry, he'll go mental!

Yet every time ah didnae get pissed off and raised ma voice wus usually justified. Since it's wus normally due to not being listened to. And ah kept ma arguments on f*ckin' point, and only every made 'em about me to trying and get a shred o' empathy n' understanding from my mother or sisters. Not this f*ckin' "Woe-is-me! Life's a struggle" self-pitying BS that my mother and middle sister resort to in order to deflect responsibility when they've done wrong onto the person they've wronged (which is me 99% o' the time. Aye, sadly, only my eldest sister has ever had the guts to apologise to my face when she's wronged me. Cuz like me, she actually feels bad for hurting those she cares about.

Though, ah don't know whit's mair irritating that which ah just described? Or how I'm the sensible, level-headed c*nt in the family who they keep disregarding, and tellin' tae shut up? Only tae tell me that ah wus right all along. But by then everything's went to sh!te.

Sorry for this sweary rant - it's just 2 months of living with a spoiled c*nt of a bitch sibling, a near 20 year back-log of internalised rage - and being the only person within the family with a lick of common sense and decency. Well, ye tend to express yer rage n' frustration in that manner shown above.
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Well, went tae ma follow-up podiatry appointment the other day, and ma big left toenails tae come off. And thank f*ck fur that - it's been pestering me since March this year. Flaring up, getting better, only to flare up again. Ah think it's probably due to me walking aboot more, and my posture being a lot better and straighter since getting that orthopaedic surgery last year.

And it's been lookin' minging, lately anaw. Blood n' pus comin' oot it.
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As for that it's usual, huvin to tolerate a bunch o' narcissistic psycho-fannies who care more about themselves than they do me. Constant stupid arguments, huvin tae witness grown f*ckin' adult resort tae childish tactics to get sympathy. Accusing me of being a bully... F*ck off! Sorry, but ah kinda prefer being honesty, rather pretend it's aw fine n' great, when it not

Then again, da f*ck do I know, eh? I'm just the guy who gets accused of lying when I catch my family, who are liars, by quote what they've said verbatim. They expect an apology from me aw the time, yet not once huv those c*nts said sorry whenever they misquote me. And that happens frequently.

Oh, and I'm sick o' this bossy "Do this, do that" attitude o' my Mum. Constantly telling and demanding ah do as she says. I'm nearly 30 but who cares? But apparently I'm treating her like sh!te for telling her to stop telling me what to do Despite the fact she rarely says "Please" or "Thank you" whenever I as I'm told but she'll berate me when I'm not well-manner toward her or the rest o' the family.
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Never actually got to delve deep intae this with that wummin therapist ah went to counselling for. Cuz the daft bitch gave ma mother a free-pass for aw the neglect which she (my Mum) recently acknowledged. But that's how wimmin get away with more, ah believe, cuz they're telt they're good n' can do no wrong.

Not huvin a go, I'm just saying based my own experience of being raised by a wummin who has openly admit to her only son that she hates men. Women like my mother seems to huv a warped, contradictory of empathy and fairness? Ah don't know how to describe it, really.

Basically, this video really hits close to home for me.
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Getting really fed-up with my middle sister constantly yelling at our Mum. Yet, I'm telt by oor mother just to ignore it. So, f*ckin' frustrating to listen to my ain Mum being treated like sh!t.

But if it were me yelling n' balling muh heid off, Mum would threaten to stab me!
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Can't wait til ah git peace n' quiet in the house again. Actually contemplating movin' oot, cuz tae be honest, ah've no really been happy since moving from up the scheme, really. Oh, the scheme - that's slang for yer dingy, rough as f*ck council estate. Ah mean in terms o' how I've been treated by family. But hey I'm the youngest, black sheep o' the family n' that.

Not that living up the scheme wus glamourous by any means.

Anyway, ah don't know why I'm even writing this post?
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Older siblings really show ye the kinda person ya don't want to be - don't they?

Ah mean my middle sister moving back in with me and our Mum has really shown me her true colour. And put me in a better standing as a result, not bragging like. But for the past 15 years I've been telling oor mother how to be a better parent and she'll no step. I'm always forced intae that role - the surrrogate husband. And it's kinda sh!te. Cuz you see yer ain for what they are when they treat you like you're beneath them. And my middle sister is smug, hypocritical bitch. A description which ah'll be apologising for attributed to my eldest sister. She currently going to counselling but has the nerve to say I'm be overly dramatic for saying ah feel like killing myself for having to endure the constant arguments that she incites. Cuz she's the yin nitpicking and questioning everything aw the time, but nae answer is every good enough.

She'll gan: "Huh! Whit d'ye mean by that?!" Whenever me, our eldest sister or our Mum express our opinion or try to reason with her in an argument. "Aye right! Whit did ye say it like that fur them!?" Then she tell us to "F*ck off" and "LEAVE HER ALONE!" Then she wonders why I specifically don't like being round her. The kicker being that she "appreciates" my honest, yet hates being called out when she has one of her shouty, volatile outburst. And fails to even consider how she comes across in these moment to those around her.
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But, according to family myth, I'm the one who's inconsiderate, uncaring, lacking in empathy, and only care about myself. Yet, my mother has telt me to killing myself if I'm feels so depressed. My middle sister thinks my anxiety is BS. And my eldest sis accused me of being ungrateful. Nevermind, if I'm always doing things for them, or asking if they're awright. Or asking what's wrong when my Mum comes into my bedroom and sighs heavily as if to communicate "I'm f*ckin' pissed off" then proceeds to vent to me. Yet, not one o' them has even stopped, stepped back and considerate that mibbe, jist mibbe, they're volatile, shouty overactions towards constructive criticism from me is partly to blame for why I'm such a loner, and don't really like being around my family much as a collective.


On the plus side, my 2, well nearly 3 year old niece likes me. For reasons I can't even begin to understand. Going so far as to say this aloud to my Mum, her Granny. Mibbe it's the fact I'm not as loud when I speak, juxaposed with her mother. Who will shout at her a lot when she doesn't do as she told or when my niece does something wrong. Like recently, I came downstair to use to toilet, to found the bathroom door open and the light on. I couldn't see if there was anyone in, so I peaked my head in to look, and found my niece standing there. And calmly I say, "Awrite! Hey, ah need to use the toilet, could you just wait here for a moment?", pointing to the stair landing. "I'll let ye back in once I'm done, okay?" My niece, looks up at me, then to the toy she hold, and say: "Okay Gra-uhm" and exits the bathroom. And as I shut the bathroom door, she says "Gra-uhm's in there, Granny. He using the toilet!".

Whereas my middle sister, her mother would've been like: "Right! Move. Out!". And she wonders why her daughter's favourite word to her in response are: "No!"

I know, I know... I'd wouldn't make a very good parent
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Well, a door just slammed, that cun only mean that our Mum just said yet another thing that my middle sister took umbrage.

F*ckin' seek o' this - translation: I'M F*CKIN' SICK OF THIS!!

[I]Ye cun tell which parent raised us, eh? Psyche-issues up the feckin' jacksie! Volatile tempers, neurotic as f*ck, irrational unreasonable. Thanks Mum! Sorry ah didnae turn oot tae be the son you'd hope fur!

Mibbe if she'd talked into being trans, ah could've hud the sex-change by now and changed ma first name to Gemma? Huv'nae fully research that in terms hormone replace therapy, but ye git muh point, hopefully? Even if I'm just joking when I say that. Oh, and jist tae clarify that aformentioned joke comes from being the only guy in a household of wimmin who f*ckin' despise me as a gender but not in terms of what they cun dae fur them. Aye, feminists.

Not bitter though, or as bitter as I should be. It's a great laugh watching wimmin lose the heid n' gan full NED - non-educated delinquent - gettin' in yer face cuz you telt them the truth. Then ye realise: "F*ck! I'm related to that... thing who's gieing laldy with the loud mooth!"
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Well, a door just slammed, that cun only mean that our Mum just said yet another thing that my middle sister took umbrage.

F*ckin' seek o' this - translation: I'M F*CKIN' SICK OF THIS!!

[I]Ye cun tell which parent raised us, eh? Psyche-issues up the feckin' jacksie! Volatile tempers, neurotic as f*ck, irrational unreasonable. Thanks Mum! Sorry ah didnae turn oot tae be the son you'd hope fur!

Mibbe if she'd talked into being trans, ah could've hud the sex-change by now and changed ma first name to Gemma? Huv'nae fully research that in terms hormone replace therapy, but ye git muh point, hopefully? Even if I'm just joking when I say that. Oh, and jist tae clarify that aformentioned joke comes from being the only guy in a household of wimmin who f*ckin' despise me as a gender but not in terms of what they cun dae fur them. Aye, feminists.

Not bitter though, or as bitter as I should be. It's a great laugh watching wimmin lose the heid n' gan full NED - non-educated delinquent - gettin' in yer face cuz you telt them the truth. Then ye realise: [I]"F*ck! I'm related to that... thing who's gieing laldy with the loud mooth!"[/I
Anyway, back to my original grievance - my middle sister. The proprietor of the Psycho-Fanny Circus.

So, ma main issue is just How... How in tha f*ck did a person who's only a few years older than, and related to me, turn oot tae be the least mature, emotionally, and most spoiled? Makes me wonder if all Beyonce fans are like that? Also, would I be being a total arse for finally saying "Right, I'm movin' oot" not long after my middle sister and her kids get a place of their own?
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I don't feel i've EVER get out the rut i'm in with life. It's just not gonna happen, as i'm WAY too stuck in my ways & mindset.
Ah know how ye feel... I'm much the same as far as being stuck in a rut. But ah don't know how to gan aboot changing things, since my family tend to guilt-trip me when ah try to do so.
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Apparently I'm a good ol' soul, or so ma Mum likes tae tell me lately. Whatever that means, eh? Ah wouldnae know since am mair used tae being yin who gets treated like sh!te most I've the time. Or, rather, ah hit disregard n' disrespected a lot. She even admitted that she nags at me more than she really should. Ah think huvin my middle sister back living with us might've gave our Mum a new perspective and insight intae her parenting, or lack thereof in my case?

Personally ah'd dispute that claim of me being a good soul. Mainly cuz ah dinnae really see masel' as a good soul, really. Just a buddy who got tae where ah um by learning fae the mistakes o' other folk. See how ma family behave n' act and realising ah dinnae want tae be like them. Ah mean in the sense o' being that loud, that in yer face, that erratic, that miserable... Not that ah see myself as better than in any way. Just sensible, really.

Mind you, it does feel odd to be the yin who's more right than wrong, lately. Since me opening ma gob n' telling it as ah see it usually hus, either, ma mother or one of my older sister storming off in a huff, cuz ah've no validated their opinion n' agreed with 'em.
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