obsession number one, my looks

Okay, today I was cycling, and I had black clothes on.
I was thinking to myself, Oh no.. Everybody would think I'm a gothic.
They would think i'm ugly, and they would dislike me.
(because many people threat gothic's bad, I don't think gothic's are ugly)
I felt so terrible while cycling, and I was really upset, and I thought noooo everybody knows how upset I am
Then I was at my grandmother and I looked in the mirror and I thought,
What a weird face I have, and my hair looks like a mess.
I always want to look perfect, and now I think I can't show myself in this world.
I'm soooooooooooooo obsessed.
Does anyone knows what is wrong with me?
 

planemo

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Obviously I'm not a psych, but I think you might have an anxiety disorder (maybe general anxiety disorder). Something however is strongly connecting your anxiety to the way you look. I'm pretty much the same, but I feel less anxious about the way I look since I've treated my anxiety. Since the anxiety has receded, my negative feelings are not so strong. If you can think of any reason why you feel anxious about your looks, it might help. If that's you in your avatar, then you certainly don't need to be worried, but I know that despite this, sometimes it seems as if your emotions don't work on common sense. ::p:

So I think it's important to treat your anxiety and fear, because this probably is what triggers your insecurity. Good luck...:)
 

coyote

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I'm just learning about this stuff - so I don't presume to be an expert.

But it seems that worrying about your looks falls squarely under the Social Phobia/Social Anxiety and Avoidant Personality umbrella:

Anxiety over what others will think of your appearance.
Anxiety that they will judge you negatively.
Wanting to avoid the scrutiny.
Wanting to avoid situations where you might face scrutiny.
Etc.

I used to worry that I was vain, because I was constantly concerned with my appearance. But I suppose you're only vain if you think you look GOOD. I worry that I don't look good - or, actually I'm discovering, I worry that other people will think i don't look good.
 

lunarla

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I'm definitely obsessed about the way I look. It's what makes me feel the worst. I truly believe that I'm just not good enough for myself or anyone else. I'm constantly comparing myself to all other girls in such a way that they're far better than me. I bring myself down a lot. And if I do it enough, when I look in the mirror, I don't even think I look human.

When I'm not in that state, though, it's a bit easier to realize that it's irrational, not necessarilyyyyyy true, and that it's just a product of my negative thoughts. I try to believe that's what it is, anyway.

So, I don't think I'd say anything is wrong with you. But likely if your thoughts are mostly negative, that's what's also making up this false representation of yourself in your eyes.
 

AimeeSP

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Saskia sweetheart, have you heard of Body dysmorphic disorder? It's just alot of what you have explained sounds very similar to BDD, i have it, i'm not saying you do, just it sounds very similar. *big hugs*
 

NathanielWingatePeaslee

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Saskia sweetheart, have you heard of Body dysmorphic disorder? It's just alot of what you have explained sounds very similar to BDD, i have it, i'm not saying you do, just it sounds very similar. *big hugs*

It sounds more like the acute self-consciousness ( Self-consciousness - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia ) that tends to go along with SA rather than BDD.

Saskia--I looked at your profile and you're 17. That's old enough for an official diagnosis where you are, right?
 
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