Scottish_Player
Well-known member
I havent really been posting here much for the reason that i feel i am getting better so too speak and well i just wanted to let other people know that it can be over come to a certain extent, maybe not completly but to a point where it can change your life for the better.
Reading back over some of the posts i put up here when i first joined nearly a year ago seem so not like the way i feel now, when i have read them its like reding someone elses posts and its by reading over some of my old post and realizing how much i have changed that gives me confidence and hope that i can keep it up.
Ive even got my first night out (well kinda) that ive ever had, iam going out on Saturday to a work mates house for a poker night
i will know 3 of them but i dont knw the other 4. The guy that invited me has asked me too so many things and i felt i couldnt keep saying no so i said yes for a change, i thought to myself if i want my life to change then i have to start making changes and well this seems like a good a time as any.
There is no one thing that has helped me get to where iam just now, for me i just kinda stopped thinking about things so much and just get on with it, i stopped letting my work bother me cause iam just a number too them, i stopped letting what other people though of me because chances are i'll never see them again. To think that this time last year i had too look out side all the windows before i left the house to make sure there was no one there and if i came home and there where people in my street i would find myself driving past a coming back once they where away all seems so silly now. Some things i have changed about myself are the way i walk, i've learned to walk with my shoulders more relaxed and looking back now i was so tense, eye contact was alos a big problem but now with that i would say iam half way there.
I have no real point here but just want to let other people know that you dont have to have SA/SP for life in my opinion for me alot of it is in my mind and no one can change my mind and thoughts but myself.
This will prob be my last post on here (then again maybe not ) so i thought i would make it a positive one
Reading back over some of the posts i put up here when i first joined nearly a year ago seem so not like the way i feel now, when i have read them its like reding someone elses posts and its by reading over some of my old post and realizing how much i have changed that gives me confidence and hope that i can keep it up.
Ive even got my first night out (well kinda) that ive ever had, iam going out on Saturday to a work mates house for a poker night
i will know 3 of them but i dont knw the other 4. The guy that invited me has asked me too so many things and i felt i couldnt keep saying no so i said yes for a change, i thought to myself if i want my life to change then i have to start making changes and well this seems like a good a time as any. There is no one thing that has helped me get to where iam just now, for me i just kinda stopped thinking about things so much and just get on with it, i stopped letting my work bother me cause iam just a number too them, i stopped letting what other people though of me because chances are i'll never see them again. To think that this time last year i had too look out side all the windows before i left the house to make sure there was no one there and if i came home and there where people in my street i would find myself driving past a coming back once they where away all seems so silly now. Some things i have changed about myself are the way i walk, i've learned to walk with my shoulders more relaxed and looking back now i was so tense, eye contact was alos a big problem but now with that i would say iam half way there.
I have no real point here but just want to let other people know that you dont have to have SA/SP for life in my opinion for me alot of it is in my mind and no one can change my mind and thoughts but myself.
This will prob be my last post on here (then again maybe not
) so i thought i would make it a positive one 
