hi - this is one of my first posts on these forums, so i thought id tell my story:
I have had a really tough year so far, the girl who i was crazy about dumped me, a friend of mine committed suicide, im under a hideous amount of stress for my exams, and i feel so lonely. I feel like I have no-one to talk to, even though I have plenty of friends (I dont think they know how I feel, I'm quite good at covering it all up). At one point I took a week off in my course in university with what I said was "a virus" - in reality I couldnt face going in. I went home for that week, and I felt a bit better, but after heading back i have sank back in to negativity.
I live by myself in a city 200 miles away from my family, and on the other side of town to my friends; with the demands of my university course I rarely get the chance to see them.
I used to be quite outgoing and enjoyed hitting the town with my mates, but now any time there is a night out or a party, I make excuses and stay at home or leave early. I feel really awkward talking to people, and this is positively reinforced: i think im not going to have anything to say, so i dont.
I am already trying to resolve these issues but I'm finding it really difficult to keep going in the mean time. I feel like the joy has been ripped out of me and that theres nothing I can do about it, I feel suicidal and every time i see a bus go past I feel like I've missed another opportunity to just end it. I am having trouble sleeping and am exhausted all the time, and all of this together means that I am finding it difficult studying for my exams which are in 3 weeks time, which I need to pass to stay in my course - making me even more stressed out.
Im such a mess inside my head and no-one has a clue.
I have had a really tough year so far, the girl who i was crazy about dumped me, a friend of mine committed suicide, im under a hideous amount of stress for my exams, and i feel so lonely. I feel like I have no-one to talk to, even though I have plenty of friends (I dont think they know how I feel, I'm quite good at covering it all up). At one point I took a week off in my course in university with what I said was "a virus" - in reality I couldnt face going in. I went home for that week, and I felt a bit better, but after heading back i have sank back in to negativity.
I live by myself in a city 200 miles away from my family, and on the other side of town to my friends; with the demands of my university course I rarely get the chance to see them.
I used to be quite outgoing and enjoyed hitting the town with my mates, but now any time there is a night out or a party, I make excuses and stay at home or leave early. I feel really awkward talking to people, and this is positively reinforced: i think im not going to have anything to say, so i dont.
I am already trying to resolve these issues but I'm finding it really difficult to keep going in the mean time. I feel like the joy has been ripped out of me and that theres nothing I can do about it, I feel suicidal and every time i see a bus go past I feel like I've missed another opportunity to just end it. I am having trouble sleeping and am exhausted all the time, and all of this together means that I am finding it difficult studying for my exams which are in 3 weeks time, which I need to pass to stay in my course - making me even more stressed out.
Im such a mess inside my head and no-one has a clue.