My feelings lately

I'm feeling more isolated all the time, regardless of having people around me.

I'm having trouble sleeping

I feel ugly

I feel boring

I feel evil

I feel worthless

I'm irritable and always on a knife edge; I snap on workmates and parents for the slightest things

Can someone please explain to me why i talk to my workmates yet at home is don't talk to my parents?

I'm also feeling worse because my mother is so un-understaning of my depression. She thinks that i am depressed on purpose and calls me a sulking little kid. Believe me i wouldn't be depressed by choice!

recluse said:

Can someone please explain to me why i talk to my workmates yet at home is don't talk to my parents?

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You answered your own question i think there bud Sounds like your Mum isnt even trying to be supportive,and that does make you feel like crap..Your parents are supposed to be the few people in this world who accept you no matter what.

Obviously this isnt always the case.Like you said yourself its not like you choose to be like this..I dunno what to advise really but it sounds like your mum is dragging your self esteem down,which you obviously dont need as we do a good enough job of this ourselves without anyone elses help.

Ive not lived at home for a long time now i moved out it my teens,but i remember my Dad constabtly putting me down because he either didnt understand,or chose not too.Id keep as much distance between you and your Mum as you can,you dont need that sort of negative shit to deal with imo.your home is ment to be like your sanctuary..maybe you feel stressed even at home cos of your Mum?

recluse said:

I'm feeling more isolated all the time, regardless of having people around me.

I'm having trouble sleeping

I feel ugly

I feel boring

I feel evil

I feel worthless

I'm irritable and always on a knife edge; I snap on workmates and parents for the slightest things

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Insomnia and irritability - I have a lot of experience with that. When we suffer from lots of stress, be it physical and/or mental, we can wear out our central nervous system (CNS). In weightlifting, we call it overtraining, but it's not restricted to just physical exercise. Anxiety or any emotional pain can lead to overtraining. The only solution is time off. Set a week or two aside with little or no stress if you can. Make sure you're getting enough healthy calories. Set aside at least an hour a day as a relaxation period: watch a movie or do whatever gets you to completely relax. Laughter really helps.

recluse said:

Can someone please explain to me why i talk to my workmates yet at home is don't talk to my parents?

I'm also feeling worse because my mother is so un-understaning of my depression. She thinks that i am depressed on purpose and calls me a sulking little kid. Believe me i wouldn't be depressed by choice!

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I went through a long period where I didn't talk to my parents at all. I realized it was because I was so pissed at them for ****ing me up the way they did. Then I read an NLP book and it said "Everyone is doing the best they can with the tools and knowledge they have." They did the best they could. They have their own problems and they're not perfect.

So I forgive them. I found that when I forgive someone, a huge burden is lifted. I'm an atheist, but a common theme among religions is forgiveness. It really is powerful.

recluse said:

I'm feeling more isolated all the time, regardless of having people around me.



Can someone please explain to me why i talk to my workmates yet at home is don't talk to my parents?

I'm also feeling worse because my mother is so un-understaning of my depression. She thinks that i am depressed on purpose and calls me a sulking little kid. Believe me i wouldn't be depressed by choice!

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Same here, I think you're distancing yourself from them because you don't feel you get any mental support from them. Maybe you should really try to sit down and talk with them and try to convince them that you're doing it on purpose and that you're having a difficult time?