My current situation

hello everyone,
this is my first time entering anything on this site and have only recently discovered it. i have only recently sought help for SAD despite being fully aware that i suffered from it for many years. The recent medications have certainly helped and I have made many leaps and bounds past where i was. I am actually hanging out with girls a lot and the things I used to do to simply mindlessly past the time like playing highly addicting video games don't really entertain me and I actually find myself wanting to hang out wiht this current set of girls. although this is a huge jump im certainly not passed all my problems and am certainly working towards this issue. I still can't really hang out with any people outside this small group of friends and still can't remember the last time i actually introduced myself to anyone. Anyways, my current problem is that I really am interested in one of the few girls that I am able to hang out with. It can be very hard for me to interact with her sometimes on a 1 on 1 basis but fo the most part we get along really well. She knows about this problem I have, one of the 5 people i have actually trust enough to tell them. i still don't have the confidence to approach her about this issue. One of the biggest problems is the idea of if i do finally get the courage to do this and she does not feel the same way and then it becomes too awkward for us to hang out any more. I certainly do not want to lose any of the friends I have because I certainly do not have that many, certainly not close ones that I want to hang out with. I could understand that this may be an issue other people have dealt with. i was wondering if anyone has any thoughts on this matter? I always fear the fact that I may screw something up and it is tied into my OCD habit of checking everything multiples times with the hope that I won't make any mistakes. Thank you

What's the medication you've been taking, and how much has it affected you ?

ive been on prozac for awhile and sleep aids so i could actually get to sleep because the stress was causing me to be up all night which just led to more anxiety. it has basically taken me from looking completely stoic on the outside while being completely miserable to actually having visible ups and downs. I was kinda worried at first about if i wanted to continue the meds because the downs were kinda hard at first but for the first time in a long time I have been happy in some periods. I have been able to do stuff i never dreamed of doing before like I did ask this girl to go get some food and then watch a movie with me, the movie part fell through but we still did hang out. i have been able to do more but quite honestly my confidence hasn't really improved that much and my self esteem can go on a complete rollercoaster in literally 15 seconds of being on top of the world back to depressed. i over analyze every situation. One example is this same girl wanted to watch a movie with me later, we had just hung out for like 3 hrs. Then I waited for her to call, the entire night freaking out and panicking. I felt awful and was thinking not only does she not like me but clearly she doesn't even want to be my friend any more. It turns out she wanted to leave to call me earlier but a bunch of her friends made her feel guilty about not hanging out with them enough and she was really sorry and wanted to hang out the next day. This is just one example but this type of stuff happens to me numerous times per week. I really am pushing to change this problem for the first time in my life but its rather difficult because no one around me has any idea how to help me. one of my best friends will always listen to me vent or anything like that but he is one of the most social people I know and has no idea how to help people do stuff he does 100x in a day without thinking twice about it. Any help with my situation would certainly be much appreciated

Youre asking us?

Are you asking us? I am sorry budy but youre doing just fine to me. I dont see anything unusual about what you are doing and how you are handling it.

I mean jeeze its your first time so yeah you are going to trip up a bit but wow congradulations. We are the one who should be asking you for advise.

As it is now you have a group of friends you are comfortable around, and sooner or later you will be introduced to their other friends and you will slowly expand your social contacts this way. If you approach her and you're rejected you may jeopardise this single point of contact you currently have. So what I am saying is try and wait - there's no harm in waiting (but it will be frustrating) - and perhaps down the track you will have an intimate relationship with someone you met through these girls.

thanks. i guess more of what im trying to ask is what do you guys do when your confidence/self esteem goes completely down the drain. I am very thankful that I have been able to change and would certainly give any advice i can regarding how i have changed but regarding this subject ive read numerous books, spent hours online searching, and I just can't find anything that helps. i am sure most people on this site go through the same exact problem. I know my questions kinda just have been turning to venting so its very hard to answer but i appreciate any and all attempts