Mental illness and love

Is it possible? I'm not talking about loving your family, I mean a romantic, mutual love between two people. I guess I'm just getting depressed after reading this article in Nat. Geographic about how passionate love, as a chemical reaction is almost indistinguishable from people who have obsessive compulsive disorder (which I have, among other things...) It lowers the seratonin in your blood, it becomes, essentially like a mental illness! Doesn't make it sound so appealing.

And also, they talked about Prozac (which I'm on) and its reduction of sex drive, and also the ABILITY to fall in love. all this has made me increasingly depressed. It probably doesn't help that I've done practically nothing all day allowing my mind to roam free (which is never a good thing when you have a mind like mine).

I have never been in love, probably. I've felt what I think is love. I've had crushes, but they don't count for much when the guy doesn't know your name. What I'm wondering is, have any of you ever been in love? Do you think it's hard for everyone or just us?

Im going through a hell load of crap (Deppression, anxiety, social anxiety etc) i can still hounestly say i could still easily love someone. i think love is too powerfull to be changed by medication or mental illnesses. All i can recomend to you is if your medication is causing you any deppression at all try something else.

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It can be more difficult for people with SA to find love, but it does happen. Love, afterall, is one of the most prevalent, but least recognized mental illnesses.

It`s very hard for me to feel comfortable around other people..
With a partner, you`re obviously gonna have a very intimate relationship..
Which I thought would be impossible for me..
I`ve been lucky, I have someone now..
..Someone I trust, love and feel really comfortable with.
Of course, I constantly worry that something will happen.
Thoughts as "Do I really deserve this?" and "It`s too good to be true" go through my mind..
I`m afraid that I`ve got to attached to him..
I`m scared now.. Scared of being alone again

Masamune said:

(and the love feeling is wonderfull when it goes well, but when it goes bad AND mix it with a personaliy disorder....you will know darkness trust me.)

..After some time i found out i had APD, which explained my behaviour and past mistakes.
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You hit a chord here...when it goes bad. I think that's why I've instinctively avoided intimacy and love my whole life. Little things can cause my mind to blow up. What about the big things, like being rejected in love? Keeping up relationships is such a BURDEN, I feel tethered and trapped. I feel under someone else's control, having to act a certain way, constantly preforming...
What more do any of you know about APD? I find that I identify more with the symptoms of that disorder now than with social anxiety. I'm still socially anxious, but I'd rather have a short conversation with a stranger and never see them again than be forced to hang out with my old friends. It's the people I use to be close with that I avoid like the plague, and I don't want to start new relationships because I know how they will end up--with me trying to escape responsibility like a fox caught in a trap gnawing it's own leg off!! 8O

I feel better about the whole love thing. And I've decided that you are right, prince1, love is too powerful to be confined by medication. What I feel...this profound need to AVOID, has to do with me, not some external element.
Thanks for all your replies, they really helped guys