123456switch

Hey man, You just disappeared, I'm worried about you !! When you get back, send me a message OK ? There is more in life that nobody told you about, you need to give it a try !!

I can relate... I just wrote something in this earlier if it explains anything
http://www.socialphobiaworld.com/i-am-not-going-to-be-okay-55663/

I am Canadian. And NOTHING will change my mind, I don't want resources or public assistance, or anyone to talk me out of it. I'd rather die than become a loser on disability and live off the sweat of other people's hard work. I want nothing out of life, except to die. NOTHING else. I want ONE thing-death. I will research EVERY method possible, until I find one that is painless and immediate.

Hi 123456switch,
I didn't see where you were from and was trying post possible help resources in my post reply. I am assuming (probably wrong ) that you might be American.
So if you are not please respond, so I might find better research results for you.
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