tommydog
Well-known member
last night i made a massive effort and went with my best mate to meet up with dozens of his mates at a club.
If id just gone, and then left straight away, i would have still been happy with myself because i made that first step, made the effort, got dressed, and went. But thats not what happened, i had a good time aswell and i did really well with keeping my sp well and truly in check. Now the trick is always that same, i did this and i feel great, but this is just the big first step, now i have to back it up with repeatedly going out to places like this over and over again over the next month or so, now that im confident and i can, otherwise ill go back to were i started.
picked up this really nice chick aswell. parkia x maori (for all you other side of the world people, that means white nz x dark nz) she an air hostess :lol: she msg'd me after the club when i was on my way home (she'd left earlier than me aswell) saying if i wanted to go crash at her house im welcome hehe. i said no ! and it wasnt nothing to do with sp either :lol: i said that (in a nice, sugar coated, flirty way) because iv got enough experience to have learned you have to play hard to get with girls, or else they tire of you quickly. So i might call her tomorrow, hopefully its a nice day, cause she lives in a beach suburb, that would be a perfect place to take her
anyway so yer now its on to trying to be consistent and get out there a few more times over the immediate future so i can break this thing ... wish me luck !
edit : sometimes when im taking on a big challenge like this, i seem to come up with certain mantras on the fly as im trying to ready myself up before i get there right .... last nights was
"be yourself, i am who i am and im proud of it"
and
"look at the big picture, tonight is just a hump i have to get over to get there"
and they worked for me :lol: see stupid crappy catch frases are ok after all
If id just gone, and then left straight away, i would have still been happy with myself because i made that first step, made the effort, got dressed, and went. But thats not what happened, i had a good time aswell and i did really well with keeping my sp well and truly in check. Now the trick is always that same, i did this and i feel great, but this is just the big first step, now i have to back it up with repeatedly going out to places like this over and over again over the next month or so, now that im confident and i can, otherwise ill go back to were i started.
picked up this really nice chick aswell. parkia x maori (for all you other side of the world people, that means white nz x dark nz) she an air hostess :lol: she msg'd me after the club when i was on my way home (she'd left earlier than me aswell) saying if i wanted to go crash at her house im welcome hehe. i said no ! and it wasnt nothing to do with sp either :lol: i said that (in a nice, sugar coated, flirty way) because iv got enough experience to have learned you have to play hard to get with girls, or else they tire of you quickly. So i might call her tomorrow, hopefully its a nice day, cause she lives in a beach suburb, that would be a perfect place to take her
anyway so yer now its on to trying to be consistent and get out there a few more times over the immediate future so i can break this thing ... wish me luck !
edit : sometimes when im taking on a big challenge like this, i seem to come up with certain mantras on the fly as im trying to ready myself up before i get there right .... last nights was
"be yourself, i am who i am and im proud of it"
and
"look at the big picture, tonight is just a hump i have to get over to get there"
and they worked for me :lol: see stupid crappy catch frases are ok after all