"lonliness is not a phase...."

sullyS1985

Well-known member
I am so lonely right now i cant stop looking at my cell phone to see if this chick has texted me or not. I dont think she will, i think i weirded her out and/or texted her too much. Every day that goes by I continue to think that i will be alone my whole life. I know ive mentioned this before and you all think i am just hungry for pity but im not. Im just trying to vent. I was happy all day yesterday and on monday because i had gotten this girls number from class talked to her for a while, about some pretty deep stuff, gave her a ride home because it was snowing all day and i felt like she really liked me. I know this is irrational and i complete like a weak piece of shit for feeling so depressed right now but that is how i feel. I truly believe i will be single the rest of my life and while im sure that may be possible for some, it doesnt seem like it to me. i have only had one or two girlfriends in my life, which i realize is more than most but the feeling of having someone care for you and be with you in situtions such as the one im in now is incredible. I am going to try going to the gym to make myself feel better about this situation, i sure hope it helps because i feel like im down in a 9 foot hole waiting for the stones to be put in to place.
 

pljunkie

Active member
I think I will be single forever too and I've also only had 2 boyfriends.

Gym is a good idea. I started going to gym with my sister recently. At first I didn't see the point but the more I go the better I feel afterward.
 

Silvox Black

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Find something to distance yourself from the pain for a while, allow your unconscious mind to sort through the gritty details. Give yourself a bit of respite and attempt to relax if you will. Your dismal mood is justified, it is something that anyone would feel. Do not allow anyone else to inform you otherwise, and yes your fear of being alone is one that many of us share. The feeling of being truly appreciated and cared for is something we all long for.
 

sullyS1985

Well-known member
Texted her too much? Was she texting back up until then?

ahhh im an idiot, she was just studying for a test all day. and didnt have time to do it or even have her phone. This shit always happens and i end up feeling like a douche. thank you for the insight silvox it made perfect sense
 

reslo

Well-known member
welcome to world of relationships! :) everyone who doesn't or has never had one thinks they're the solution to everything- but they really do add more stress! My last relationship lasted a couple weeks- i worried every day that the person i was with would find somebody better, more outgoing, that any day they would wake up and see the real me and not want to be with me. It was just like a constant deep sinking feeling that it wouldn't work out. Like when i was around the person I was ok, but then when i wasn't, i just kept worrying about it... so i know how you feel. It can be really up or really down- and those little things seem so huge.
i think that if you work on yourself, the relationship thing will probably fall into place.
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lol, well you should take her out after finals!
 

sullyS1985

Well-known member
welcome to world of relationships! :) everyone who doesn't or has never had one thinks they're the solution to everything- but they really do add more stress! My last relationship lasted a couple weeks- i worried every day that the person i was with would find somebody better, more outgoing, that any day they would wake up and see the real me and not want to be with me. It was just like a constant deep sinking feeling that it wouldn't work out. Like when i was around the person I was ok, but then when i wasn't, i just kept worrying about it... so i know how you feel. It can be really up or really down- and those little things seem so huge.
i think that if you work on yourself, the relationship thing will probably fall into place.
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lol, well you should take her out after finals!

That makes a lot of sense and i can identify completely. In the relationships I had, i would be jealous is the girl was out with a group of her guy friends because like u said i thought she might realize they are better than me, so then i would constantly text message them and scare them off. now ive settled down but it is still there and i agree my issue should be resolved and the reasons i have that constant jealousy or what have you will disipate
 

Ren Koutaisou

Well-known member
You've had two girlfriends huh? I've had ZERO and I'm almost 22. But yes, keep going to the gym and eat a lot because that will make more girls attracted to you. It's ideal to be "thick" and I'm trying to as well, even though I don't go to the gym anymore I just do push ups and squats at random times throughout the day.

If you fail with one girl, there are like 3 billion more in the world, right? Consider it experience instead of failure.
 
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