Just My Thoughts

Lccska

Well-known member
When I had my horrible episode of depression/panic, that led to a hospitalization (which I joking call my unfortunate incarceration, from Designing Women) there was no Social Networking (it was 24 years ago). It is certainly a valuable tool if used properly.

I had 2 young Daughters who I loved more than myself. I have told my own Daughter that I wished she had something compelling, that she loved so much, that she just HAD to get better. Loving yourself that much would be good.

I had nobody who understood my illness. It was just me, and of course my Psychiatrist and Therapist. But even they had no idea how this illness can truly take your very soul from your body. My thought at the time was "death has got to be easier than this". I never wanted to kill myself, but I was fearful that I would impulsively do something. I was a Psych Nurse for 15 years, and there was no way I was going to leave my Daughters with the thought that I didn't love them enough to stay alive.

Okay, so what is my point? I came here to find a place for my daughter to go so she knew she wasn't alone in the world. There were other people with the same illness! When I read some of your stories I just wanted to cry. I so badly wanted to help you guys get thru this time in your life, so you could go on to be the people you want to be. I rarely post anything because I haven't felt my advice has been very helpful (and my posts end up in the "off topic" area). That's okay too. But I do know that "what are you eating" isn't any more important than what I have to say. I see so many of you trying to be positive and keep moving forward. That's truly what you have to do every single day! But.....I see others being negative. Which is okay to a point. But I think it is up to those who truly want to help, to come up with something to help that person. It's not okay for someone to say "I want to die" and the next guy to say "me too". I wish the next guy would say " okay you want to die, so why don't you go talk a 30 minute walk, and come back and tell me how you felt on that walk". Or, "okay you want to die, so go write down 5 things that are good in your life. Come back and tell me what those 5 things are, and we'll talk about them".

I'm going to leave this site because I find myself crying a lot. It's probably remembering how hopeless I felt during that horrible time in my life. It's also knowing my Daughter is going thru this right now, and it's honestly more pain than I can stand. She needs me to be strong for her right now. If I
could take you all off to an Island where nobody could ever hurt you again, I would so so in a second. But of course I can't.

I wish you all more happiness than you ever thought imaginable. You have to work for it though. It's not going to just happen. And it won't be easy. I've been there, I know. Good Luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

vexatiousmind

Well-known member
I agree, I wish there was more positive post here.
Sometimes I like to post silly stuff like in the this or that thread, or whatever. It is a good time killer.
But, I do think we would all benefit if everyone tried to help each other a little more.
A lot of times people post what is bothering them, and get replies, but they never return the favor when other people need support.

I am guilty of this at times also, so I am on board to try to be more supportive.
 

Steppen-Wolf

Well-known member
I feel we're just outcast looking for somewhere to belong, a community of people like us, just somewhere where you can feel you're not such a weird and out of place human being.

There's nothing noone can say or do in a forum that will somehow fix our problems or even make them easier, but we can share experiencies and maybe learn something from each other.

If not, I think we can still learn to call this website our virtual home, for our physichal home feels nothing like it.

You seem like a really caring person and it's a shame that you'll leave, but if this site only brings back bad memories, I think is for the best.

Good luck and farewell :).
 
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