jazy
Active member
I myself have always been in a safe haven when it comes to love because I’ve never really experienced real love. I’ve always been shot down by women whether it was that they couldn’t be seen with someone
like me who wasn’t popular and viewed by others as a loser, to laughing in my face when I asked them out, looking me up and down and saying no because I’m ugly, saying they wanted to go out but instead ditched me and laughed about it. Then I remember someone saying to me that it’s probably because I as a person have nothing to offer to anyone and they can see that. How can they see that from me saying hi and asking them out? It was at that point that I give up one ever finding love and decided to stay single forever. Some days it hurts some days it doesn’t, but I wonder which one is worse the pain of not being loved, or never finding love, and being alone the rest of your life? Or the pain of being with someone only to lose them when the relationship doesn’t work out? I guess as long as we have our own safe haven to protect us. We will all be ok. Well some of us.
But I think love shy has something to do with it too, and that I became love shy from all the rejection I took from women, and now protect myself from it. I am 25 years old, never had a girlfriend, a virgin, and I have nothing to offer. Sometimes I wonder If ending it all would make it better. To find the exit that would help me escape the pain.
like me who wasn’t popular and viewed by others as a loser, to laughing in my face when I asked them out, looking me up and down and saying no because I’m ugly, saying they wanted to go out but instead ditched me and laughed about it. Then I remember someone saying to me that it’s probably because I as a person have nothing to offer to anyone and they can see that. How can they see that from me saying hi and asking them out? It was at that point that I give up one ever finding love and decided to stay single forever. Some days it hurts some days it doesn’t, but I wonder which one is worse the pain of not being loved, or never finding love, and being alone the rest of your life? Or the pain of being with someone only to lose them when the relationship doesn’t work out? I guess as long as we have our own safe haven to protect us. We will all be ok. Well some of us.
But I think love shy has something to do with it too, and that I became love shy from all the rejection I took from women, and now protect myself from it. I am 25 years old, never had a girlfriend, a virgin, and I have nothing to offer. Sometimes I wonder If ending it all would make it better. To find the exit that would help me escape the pain.