dancingintherain
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well, I was best friends with this girl when I was young and she was the only person who was good to me. We were like sisters. (that was back then before my SA started) then when were in the second year of high school I'd done something really stupid that made her break friends with me. From then on, the three years of high school, I thought I wasn't a good enough person to be friends with anyone, that I might hurt them or they might hurt me. I tried tons of stuff to make her forgive me like apologising but she wouldn't budge. She had tons of friends anyway - while I was all alone or being teased by people for being so quiet and weird.
Then when I left high school I thought I'll be able to make friends with other people again. But couldn't. I developed SA.
I really missed our friendship and I would dream about her being just there A LOT. Up to the point it's damaging.
Sooooo... Just a few minutes ago, I saw her in town. I said hi, then she rambled on about how good her job is and that she might find a place to live. I looked at her and saw someone so confident with lots of friends. Then she looked at me as if I was a weirdo. Actually she pretty much talked to my mum who was with me instead. I couldn't wait to go and never see her again.. She had no idea how much she damaged me.
Did she even notice that I was all alone through high school while she had tons of friends?
Was it something I deserved?
Then when I left high school I thought I'll be able to make friends with other people again. But couldn't. I developed SA.
I really missed our friendship and I would dream about her being just there A LOT. Up to the point it's damaging.
Sooooo... Just a few minutes ago, I saw her in town. I said hi, then she rambled on about how good her job is and that she might find a place to live. I looked at her and saw someone so confident with lots of friends. Then she looked at me as if I was a weirdo. Actually she pretty much talked to my mum who was with me instead. I couldn't wait to go and never see her again.. She had no idea how much she damaged me.
Did she even notice that I was all alone through high school while she had tons of friends?
Was it something I deserved?
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