I lost the battle today...

I was doing really well last week, I was feeling positive and then Monday was just awful and today, I just had the biggest panic attack of my life. I got up this morning and as usual my dad always makes me late but today he was really late. So I got into school late and I went to tutor and nobody was there, they were all in assembly and the though of going into assembly with everyone watch while I enter just made my heart pound. I walked down the stairs and grab onto ledge because I just couldn't go to assembly. I was just shaking.

So a teacher found me and sent me to the student support where I spent a good half-a-hour just crying my eyes out and then we talk and my tutor said that I was just blown it all out of portion. So the rest of the day, it got better and then I walked out of school and some chavs commented on my and my feelings just dropped. I've felt lonely, unsupported, tired, I just want it all to stop... I need someone to take me seriously!

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-hugs-

its over

be happy =]

Hey Agent,

I'm sorry that you've had a rough time. I understand what you are saying. Just remember that you have a huge support system here, and that if you need anything just let us know. I wouldn't say that you lost any battle at all. It's when we don't get back up after the fall, is when we have lost the battle. You are strong whether you believe that or not. Anyone who struggles with disorders or illnesses knows this. So give yourself some credit, get back up, and stand tall. Please take care of yourself and let us know how you are doing.

Sincerely,

David (NewDawnFades) :wink:

Thanks you two, made me feel better. Today as been the complete opposite to Tuesday. I've been happy today. God, this is one funny rollercoaster! I talked to my teachers and they are being really supportive, some of them talked about their past experiences and I related to them, it made me feel better.

We've all had those bad days where fucked up shit happens.
I just see each of those time a oppertunity to pick yourself up, and get stronger.

And than tolerence builds