I have no personality!

recluse

recluse

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I get days where i am numb and emotionless. Today we all finished early at work for our two week Christmas holiday. Everyone else was happy and laughing, and talking to each other whereas i just stood there just staring into space. This is why i am sitting at home typing this now instead of being out drinking with my workmates, after all why do they need a dummy like me with them?

When i get these days of numbness i can't laugh, smile, cry, talk to people(i can't think of a single thing to say). I also can't feel excited about anything; You could tell me that i had won the lottery and i would not be excited. Also when i am feeling this way i have trouble making and keeping eye contact with people because i feel so shitty.
 
Dzindzer

Dzindzer

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Wow that's crazy...i feel very similar to you in some ways.

I get times where i just feel so emotionless...i really just don't feel anything. Like my friends will be really excited about something and i'll just be like "cool". I can't be excited about things a lot of the time...even when i am excited it doesn't really seem like i am because i just can't muster up the energy to "act" excited. It's strange...
I wanna write more but I denno how to put what i'm trying to say into words :/
Well actually it sorta seems as if i don't have the energy to feel emotions sometimes. Like it just takes too much energy out of me...idk
 
alex29

alex29

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i'm the same. i feel so awkward when everyone else is showing tons of emotion and i'm just standing there idlely. i feel like i'm no fun to be around because i can't get involved or show emotion like other people.

And because i'm this way, i tend to isolate myself even more as a way to avoid this awkwardness :(
 
HexNoir

HexNoir

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I used to be like that too! Of course I had real emotions, I just couldn't let them show. After being fed up enough, I realized that the worst things that could possibly happen whilst expressing myself can't be nearly as bad as keeping myself bottled up!

And guess what? I was dead on. I can't even explain to you about how great I've felt for the last week or so. The only way you can experience it is to try - and you can't fail if you give it your all!
 
recluse

recluse

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Dzindzer said:
Wow that's crazy...i feel very similar to you in some ways.

I get times where i just feel so emotionless...i really just don't feel anything. Like my friends will be really excited about something and i'll just be like "cool". I can't be excited about things a lot of the time...even when i am excited it doesn't really seem like i am because i just can't muster up the energy to "act" excited. It's strange...
I wanna write more but I denno how to put what i'm trying to say into words :/
Well actually it sorta seems as if i don't have the energy to feel emotions sometimes. Like it just takes too much energy out of me...idk
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Yes that's how i am, i can't get the energy to show excitement, and even talking is a chore.
 
Tryin

Tryin

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Dzindze, ralex29, Vulvectomy (would be quite happy to have you write something about how did you choose that nick :)) and recluse: I read your posts and hell yeah, I can relate. Sometimes I felt/feel like I that, too. Many times, actually.

Right now I am, erm, faking a personality. I am quite active, not social (I don't socialize all that well and I don't feel comfortable socializing) but active, I do a lot of stuff, I talk a lot, I get to be heard by people a lot, I work and have opinions and play emotional.

But it's all so FAKED.

And my real personality is... drowned... lost... maybe it never did exist... ah well.
 
Doomed2Die

Doomed2Die

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Yeah I have felt the same, like... emotional scarring. If you are devoid of a feeling long enough it will simply cease to happen. This can be happiness for one.

Something gradual, or something extreme can break me out of it.

(note: its also a element of depression)
 
recluse

recluse

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Tryin said:
Dzindze, ralex29, Vulvectomy (would be quite happy to have you write something about how did you choose that nick :)) and recluse: I read your posts and hell yeah, I can relate. Sometimes I felt/feel like I that, too. Many times, actually.

Right now I am, erm, faking a personality. I am quite active, not social (I don't socialize all that well and I don't feel comfortable socializing) but active, I do a lot of stuff, I talk a lot, I get to be heard by people a lot, I work and have opinions and play emotional.

But it's all so FAKED.

And my real personality is... drowned... lost... maybe it never did exist... ah well.
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It's so tiring faking all the time. I'm exhausted!
 
Tryin

Tryin

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recluse said:
Tryin said:
Dzindze, ralex29, Vulvectomy (would be quite happy to have you write something about how did you choose that nick :)) and recluse: I read your posts and hell yeah, I can relate. Sometimes I felt/feel like I that, too. Many times, actually.

Right now I am, erm, faking a personality. I am quite active, not social (I don't socialize all that well and I don't feel comfortable socializing) but active, I do a lot of stuff, I talk a lot, I get to be heard by people a lot, I work and have opinions and play emotional.

But it's all so FAKED.

And my real personality is... drowned... lost... maybe it never did exist... ah well.
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It's so tiring faking all the time. I'm exhausted!
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I know, but how can you stop faking? I feel like I ONLY have that faked personality, and nothing underneath, just vacuum, darkness, nothing.
 
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I'm the same recluse. It's normal for me to not have much emotion.. maybe its easier? My face is usually like this - :| I find it easy to just be quiet, maybe slip off un-noticed. I hate being like this but anything else and I feel fake. I feel uneasy.
 
recluse

recluse

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Sometimes i feel that i don't care about anything. I'd say that i fake happiness more than half the time. Well Steven Seagal has no emotion on his face so maybe it's a good thing :wink:
 
lostsoul

lostsoul

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I feel very much the same way. Unemotional, lacking motivation (in fact I'm struggling to type this at the moment) I'm very quiet and find it very difficult to express myself emotionally around other people. I'm a total recluse and have no real life friends whatsoever.

Yeah I love being me. :(
 
princess_haru

princess_haru

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I'm a very emotional person, but when I'm depressed I just don't have the energy to deal with extremes of feeling so I tend to stay very quiet and cut myself off from people far more than usual. Lately at work I just can't be bothered to join in with conversations. I make the occasional effort but mostly I drift off into my own thoughts and blot out my surroundings.

Even when I'm not depressed though, I find myself being fake around people, like faking interest when I'm bored and faking happiness when I'm down. I feel as though the real me, with my random (sometimes inappropriate) thoughts, overactive imagination and mercurial moods is just not socially acceptable and has to be hidden. Sometimes I get a strong urge to just let it all out and tell everyone to go f*ck themselves if they don't like it :twisted:
 
nephatitus

nephatitus

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that happens to me too when im out in public but when im at home i find something to do to somehow express myself (ex:playing a video game and saying stuff out loud) or go to forums and post in a variety of aliases. If you dont want to express yourself out in public you dont need to. I prefer to think that everybody else but me has a soul. It makes me laugh
 
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