Hi guys! I'm new to this forum. I'm a girl from London and I've been living in Berlin for the past 6 months. I recently turned 22 and I feel so empty all the time.
I have always been socially anxious and I desperately want to overcome it. I desperately want to be able to interact with people the way that others can.
It's such a contradiction- I feel so lonely yet I hardly ever enjoy being in the company of others.
I've also found that I am unable to feel close to people. I really want to be able to have friends with whom I have a special connection and a genuine friendship but I can't seem to find any.
I've never been very popular, but I do have a few people in my life who for some reason really like me and feel close to me but it isn't reciprocal. I don't know whether it's to do with my anxiety, but I feel like it's impossible for me to feel close to people although I desperately want to.
My flatmate who I've been living with for the past 6 months, really likes me (as a friend) and it pains me to say it but I don't exactly feel the same. I think she's really nice but I don't feel that special connection that you're supposed to feel when you're close with someone. I've always felt like I have to pretend I'm close to people who feel close to me.
The only two people on the planet that I feel totally at ease with are my mum and my brother.
I also feel like the people that I genuinely really like either platonically or in a romantic sense, never seem to like me back.
I've been working at Starbucks for nearly two months now and work within a team of about 30 people and I find it so overwhelming. I really wish I could develop friendships with my colleagues and join in the camaraderie but it's so difficult. I feel like it's so hard to express emotion or excitement or joy.
Sorry this post has been a mess!
I have always been socially anxious and I desperately want to overcome it. I desperately want to be able to interact with people the way that others can.
It's such a contradiction- I feel so lonely yet I hardly ever enjoy being in the company of others.
I've also found that I am unable to feel close to people. I really want to be able to have friends with whom I have a special connection and a genuine friendship but I can't seem to find any.
I've never been very popular, but I do have a few people in my life who for some reason really like me and feel close to me but it isn't reciprocal. I don't know whether it's to do with my anxiety, but I feel like it's impossible for me to feel close to people although I desperately want to.
My flatmate who I've been living with for the past 6 months, really likes me (as a friend) and it pains me to say it but I don't exactly feel the same. I think she's really nice but I don't feel that special connection that you're supposed to feel when you're close with someone. I've always felt like I have to pretend I'm close to people who feel close to me.
The only two people on the planet that I feel totally at ease with are my mum and my brother.
I also feel like the people that I genuinely really like either platonically or in a romantic sense, never seem to like me back.
I've been working at Starbucks for nearly two months now and work within a team of about 30 people and I find it so overwhelming. I really wish I could develop friendships with my colleagues and join in the camaraderie but it's so difficult. I feel like it's so hard to express emotion or excitement or joy.
Sorry this post has been a mess!
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