I can't take it anymore

I feel like i will never ever be happy. I try to think positive and smile but i am just faking everything. Inside i feel empty, dull like i am not even alive. I want to be outgoing like other people instead of being lay back. My parents play a huge role on my depression and my anxiety because they are very old fashion. I can't speak in class or express myself with my boyfriend because i just get really anxious. I am something that i don't want to be....i want to be happy!!!!!!!!. Another huge problem that i have is frequent urinating... Since i was 9 and i am 16 now. I been checked and my bladder and kidneys are perfect. I must say that this is really uncomfortable and annoying to feel this pressure right after u pee for 7 years. I pee and right after i finish...i feel that i still have some urinate left and then i push and is a little drop or something. Due to that my panties even get wet...i feel so ashame of myself. I wonder if meds for anxiety really help with the urinate problem b.c i can't take it anymore!!!!

i know how you feel. i used to feel that way empty, sad, depressed feel hopeless and that things will never change. i dont feel that way all the time anymore but still do time to time. it sucks but u just have to tuff it out untill u feel better. ups and downs, thats just how life is and its worse for us with SA. do what ever punch a boxing bag workout listen loud music just whatever you have toget your mind out of that negative rut. as for the bladder problem, if u started getting that when u started getting anxiety its probably because of the anxiety. so if anxiety improves so should that.but im no doctor. u should ask to be refered to a specialist or sumthing and also seek treatmeant for anxiety if ur not already.

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Thanks for answering. I am not being treated because my parents don't even care and they have no idea. It's their fault that i am anxious and depressed. To them i am just acting like a teen going through hormonal changes but if they only knew...i tried to kill myself once and it didn't work. I am just fed up of living and having to go through life without being happy...seriously i can't take it anymore. I am 16 and i wanted a sweet16 they said yes and then all over sudden...they got me excited over nothing.. i will never ever forget that i thought that i was going to have my time to shine for the first time but no. For my 16 bday i wanted to die so bad u have no idea... i hate my life, i hate breathing..i hate going out...i hate everything!!

Layback on the outside, tense on the inside, eh?

Alright, here's my idea. Maybe you're putting this happiness thing on a pedestal. If you've painted a picture in your mind of what you wish to achieve, you'll be constantly comparing your everyday life to this self-created portrait of grandiosity. Whenever you look up, you realize how low you really are in comparison. Maybe all you need to do is learn to accept yourself (exactly as you are), your friends (even if you're in short supply), and the life you live. No matter how bad you think you have it, THINGS CAN ALWAYS BE WORSE.

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I have definitely been where your at now.

I doubt your parents know how their way of dealing with it is affecting you... you need supportive people around you. I felt the same way about my parents, but i grew from resentment to understanding that they have no idea how to deal with our issues. Figure out everything that's stressing you out at school and making you unhappy specifically, and form solutions.. when i didn't feel great i would have time out. With your urinary problem try pelvic floor exercises maybe.

http://www.mininova.org/tor/425326

Probably shouldn't be posting this, but, it's helped me a lot. You have to stick with it though