I can't take it

Roman Legion

Well-known member
If I don't get some money in soon, I'm really screwed.. I'm seriously weighing the option of suicide right now.. Nothing seems to be going right for me and it seems the entire world wants to see me crash and burn.. I have no viable options for gaining money besides asking for donations. No matter how many applications I put out, no matter the range from my home, nobody contacts me about a job. The army is screwing me on medical and gave me until next drill to get more proof from a doctor of my injury and I can't afford one.. I have talked to free places and the VA and just keep getting blown off.. I am at a point I don't know what to do and I'm losing it here.
 

shakethelight

Well-known member
Please dont ever think suicide is the answer. I'm sorry you are going through this right now and i really hope you are able to find a job or a soultion. I wish I could say something insightful or anything to make you feel better but all I can offer is if you ever need someone to vent too please feel free. It does get better.
dont give up hope!
 

Roman Legion

Well-known member
Please dont ever think suicide is the answer. I'm sorry you are going through this right now and i really hope you are able to find a job or a soultion. I wish I could say something insightful or anything to make you feel better but all I can offer is if you ever need someone to vent too please feel free. It does get better.
dont give up hope!

I have no hope.. Hope has been dead for a very long time now.. I can't think of a single reason to live and everything just gets worse, never better.
 

shakethelight

Well-known member
I understand your pain and I empathize, I do. And you aren't alone in what youre feeling. Just last week, I had dark thoughts and wanted to just end it. But I will fight like hell before I give in. Do you have any outlets? anything that brings some joy into your life? just know that you are important and thats one reason to live.
 

Nathália

Well-known member
I have no hope.. Hope has been dead for a very long time now.. I can't think of a single reason to live and everything just gets worse, never better.

Life is beautiful and I know you have dreams of your own. I remember you said you wanted to move to California one day and own a scooter, also saying something about leaning how to play that guitar?

You're an interesting person so far from what I've gathered on this forum. You you educated me a lot about punk rock and it has put joy into my drab life. I get it life is s***, I want to freak out sometimes too.

This is this stress talking. Don't care about what the world thinks. If I cared about everything that I am that the world hates 24/7 I would be in p**sed off more. I could name things off a list that makes me a rebel to most of societies, when I'm not at all. Sorry you can't find a job or cash, if you have to get help even though you may not like it sometimes help is a way to get off your feet. It's your life and you only have one. Sorry you feel this way.
 

Deus_Ex_Lemur

Well-known member
I can only relate to some of your problems, and past feelings of hopelessness. I feel it present day kinda but not so darkly - the world doesn't want to see you crash and burn, but that's terrible with the army turning you away? Any mental health professional to seek they offer? Is your injury serious/hurting chances of getting a job?

I can only say you never know what can happen things can change quickly... darkest before the dawn BS cliche is overdone even if some ounce of truth in it. But keep trying... consider calling hotlines for these issues they DO help or can... :) Sorry it's so tough right now. A lot of ppl can talk with here.
 

Roman Legion

Well-known member
I think I am finally defeated.. I give up.. I don't know why I cry, I know it won't relieve me. I'd like to chat online with the suicide prevention hotline because I think I'm going to attempt it for the third time.. I am a freaking moron and worthless.. All I do is screw up and get screwed over by everyone. I must be insane, because I keep making the same mistakes over and over again and don't seem to learn. I have the ability to convince myself I can do something or have the means only to find out I lied to myself and it really screws me up. I don't think I am even capable of living or operating in this world and have been thinking this for some time. I guess I have been lying to myself about my feelings all this time and I am finally so tired of hiding it that I no longer can. I'm out of options in life and I very well know this.. I am finally seeing how screwed I am and not giving myself false hope. The world is a cold and heartless place that overlooks people in need and when you reach out for help, you get none.. I learned this lesson when I was VERY young and somehow still fall victim to it. I am a pathetic, worthless idiot who in all likeliness deserves everything I have had and have coming.
 

starburst

Member
Do call the hotline, or talk to a therapist. Everyone here has probably thought to themselves that the world is a cold and heartless place, at least once or more. You're not alone in how you feel. Please don't give up. I really hope things do get better for you.
 

Ashiene

Well-known member
I have no hope.. Hope has been dead for a very long time now.. I can't think of a single reason to live and everything just gets worse, never better.

I also have no idea what I am living for. Everyday is a huge struggle that even a week seems to last a month, and each year is like a lifetime to me. Bombarded with wild thoughts and fluctuating emotions every moment of every day, it is hard to not lose grip on one's sanity...
 

Ignace

Well-known member
Can you borrow money from family members or can you stay at their place ? This would freeze your financial problems a bit so u have time to look for jobs, take anything and don't give up hope. Think of the moment you finally got a job and can pay for your possible debts.
 
I can relate to all of what you write, still nowadays, and especially when I were in my "terrible 20s". It's taken a while, but bar my recent crisis, my life overall seems better.

I think I am finally defeated.. I give up..
I've been there MANY MANY times. But i manage to endure the suffering & hopelessness, and just keep going .. to fight another day..

I'd like to chat online with the suicide prevention hotline
Yes, you should do that. And also perhaps take a look at a few suicide webpages, such as
The Ten Minute Suicide Guide | Cracked.com
..or this video
There's a strong pattern in me that doesn't want to live anymore. Can you please advise me? - YouTube

I'm out of options in life and I very well know this..
New options can arrive "out of nowhere". You never know. Perhaps someone might lend you some money? (maybe even someone on here?). But is your financial situation really that dire?? It is a truly "life-or-death" situation?. So you have no job, but are you not getting a government benefit to "tide you over"? Or is it a debt that very urgently needs repaying?

The world is a cold and heartless place that overlooks people in need and when you reach out for help, you get none..
Well i don't really rely on anybody else for hardly anything. And i don't live in society at all, perhaps due to knowing all the potential sh*t that people can throw at me (that i react badly to). But true, does seem that it's a "help yourself" society we live in nowadays. But hopefully that may change in the coming decades or centuries.

Always remember that you are needed (think about that statement, as it is partly to do with people, but also metaphysical)
 
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I'm so sorry to hear about your situation. When everything is on the edge of falling down, it doesn't mean that you should give yourself up too, I mean, you might not have money right now, you WON'T end up on the streets, nobody deserves that! You should inform and call a lot of instances as possible so you can get help insurance. Please do that!

Go to the doctor, find a therapist, or call a suicide hotline, please.. Don't hurt yourself over things like this, I know it's all worthless, and you might feel that about yourself, that shows that you need help on your thinking pattern cuz you're NOT worthless, everybody could get into this situation of having no money at all.

Everyone makes mistakes, feels terrible after a huge conflicting thing, but it doesn't mean everybody hates you, you can always solve and take it easy again...

You should find yourself at ease again... So please think how you can do that..

Not only the financial part, also your thinking.. needs to be arranged.. you are in a bad mental state.. And no need to blame for it, it's happening to so many people.. you only need to figure out , how to get yourself in a better state!!!!

Wish you all the luck... (& you can always PM me)
 

Nathália

Well-known member
Well, I'm sorry you feel hopeless. I does seem like it last forever. I remember I used to be more depressed than I currently am right now and tried suicide. It may take a while for you to get back on your feet and fight it out. It's okay you've been neglecting your emotions we grow in life. If you feel lonely you can PM me and talk about life and trade music or something. I know this point and I'm sorry you're at it right now. I hope you are alright because I really am concerned about you.
 

Bustn Justin

Well-known member
I totally understand that everything sucks right now and totally sympathize about your current situation.

However suicide is not the andswer to your problems. If you do that then you will never know how great the future can be.

By posting this message shows that you truly don't want to go through this. If you still are not convinced, please talk to a professional. They want you to stay alive.
 

mikebird

Banned
I think I am finally defeated.. I give up.. I don't know why I cry, I know it won't relieve me. I'd like to chat online with the suicide prevention hotline because I think I'm going to attempt it for the third time.. I am a freaking moron and worthless.. All I do is screw up and get screwed over by everyone. I must be insane, because I keep making the same mistakes over and over again and don't seem to learn. I have the ability to convince myself I can do something or have the means only to find out I lied to myself and it really screws me up. I don't think I am even capable of living or operating in this world and have been thinking this for some time. I guess I have been lying to myself about my feelings all this time and I am finally so tired of hiding it that I no longer can. I'm out of options in life and I very well know this.. I am finally seeing how screwed I am and not giving myself false hope. The world is a cold and heartless place that overlooks people in need and when you reach out for help, you get none.. I learned this lesson when I was VERY young and somehow still fall victim to it. I am a pathetic, worthless idiot who in all likeliness deserves everything I have had and have coming.

I am in exactly the same situation :mad:

Every day is different ::eek::

Just be like everyone else

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XlgQxK-HBGk
 
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