I am losing my mind...

I have no friends, no girlfriend. Part of this is because I have no job and no hobbies, and part is because I have no friends to do things with (it's circular). I'm 18 and live at home, unemployed.

When I finished school it wasn't just school that I quit, it was all participation in things that fall under the meaning of "having a life." I rarely leave my house, going several days straight without touching sunlight or talking to anyone besides my mother. I actively avoided guests in the house, and my main contact with the outdoors is walks that I take in twilight hours when the streets are empty.

But really I could have seen it coming. It didn't start with finishing school, when I realised how alone I was at lunch. Roaming the playground making it look like I was off to somehwere, in Year 11(senior grade?), looking around, wondering what I should do and doing nothing. Avoiding the canteen, skipping meals, dropping contact with all but 2 friends by Year 11. Bad grades, depression, boredom at school, at home, with people, and with myself.

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WELCOME TO SOCIAL PHOBIA WORLD

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.


^.... hey, I mean it.

I mean..is there anything you want to do? maybe go college or get a job? the reason why ur not mixing with people is you have no reason too. You need to do something which gets you out about meeting people. u cant have a gf or mates if your in doors all day...how u supposed to meet these potential girlfriends?

Hi, I'm the same way, I severed all contact with society when I dropped out in 10th grade. I seldom go outside, I hate when ppl come over, today I went to the library to pick up some holds and I couldnt stop sweating. I was only in there for like 5 mins but it was horrible, I feel weak when I'm outside now. I have no real ideas on how to combat this illness but I'm trying. Hope you can get help and get better.

Recent studies have attested to the fact that depression has a number of genetical factors attached to it. Depression does come to the next generations if the members of the previous generation have had instances of depression. Especially bipolar depression has been proven to come down to the next generations in case the previous generations had it. http://www.xanax-effects.com

Is there anything stopping you from going to college or getting a job?

Exactly the same situation - 18, no job, no girlfriend and no real life. I go to Uni, but it's nothing like school and I know almost no one. Right now I'm on anti-depressants for OCD & SP which oddly enough make me feel depressed.

Len said:

Is there anything stopping you from going to college or getting a job?

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I can get a job, I just mentioned I was unemployed right now, and if I want to go back to college I will have to pay because next year i'll be 19

:twisted: 18, no friends? follow me, we can rrool the world! here's a T.shirt don,nt worry about the funny shaped cross on the front :?

Seriously, 18...or there abouts is a shit place to be...you spent years being in an institution..ie school,,, suddenly you are out on the street. How much different can it be for a prisoner who was jailed in 1970 and came out in 2000...It is scary as fuck..your whole life has changed...what you where used to your whole life has been taken from you...like that magic trick where they pull a table cloth and all the pates and cutlery is still there. You are now in the twilight zone.

What got me out of that was the desire for a motorbike..It was easier back then.. not so any rules..I had to do a training scheme give my mum rent money..met a friend along the way...

shit i just reread that and it sounds lame...For me it was a motorbike..but it wasnt people... although I yearned for that contact for a long time but for you it maybe some other interest..is what I am trying to say. Do not concentrate on people, try to find an interest,,,because sometimes people will be attracted to you. shaun

Here is something VERY IMPORTANT:
If you were loosing your mind, you wouldn't be concerned about it.

Josh90 said:

When I finished school it wasn't just school that I quit, it was all participation in things that fall under the meaning of "having a life." I rarely leave my house, going several days straight without touching sunlight or talking to anyone besides my mother. I actively avoided guests in the house, and my main contact with the outdoors is walks that I take in twilight hours when the streets are empty.

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Wth...did you just read my mind? I swear you're describing my life right now.