I always think about the person I used to be!!

Birdman

Well-known member
Hello Im new to this forum. I realized ive had social anxiety about 2
months ago, but ive had it for longer that for about 1 year i just didnt know it was a problem and i was just put on zooloft and inderal for it.
Anyway I was wondering does anybody ever think about how they used to be before they knew they had social anxiety. I always do that and I just wish I was that person again.
 

saeriyas

Member
Hi. I like your post.
I've wished I could have some of my qualities from my past.

I think (?) that I used to look at the world as more of a playground. I had a lot more fun than I do now. And, I didn't worry so much about all the people around me--like what they thought about me, or what they might potentially think about me or say to me.

Also, when I looked at a certain picture from when I was a kid, it looked like my eyes sparkled! back then. And I don't see that in my eyes anymore. Looking at that picture, I felt sad like I'd lost something great that I once had.
 

Angel_Of_Death

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Birdman said:
Hello Im new to this forum. I realized ive had social anxiety about 2
months ago, but ive had it for longer that for about 1 year i just didnt know it was a problem and i was just put on zooloft and inderal for it.
Anyway I was wondering does anybody ever think about how they used to be before they knew they had social anxiety. I always do that and I just wish I was that person again.

How is the combination of zoloft and inderal working for you ?
 

ChrisAtHome

Active member
I'm 35 now and remember as a teen ager how I felt alot of social anxiety and how I would clam up at parties and felt like such an outcast at school that I eventually dropped out. I wore a leather jacket or trench coat in those days and hung out with other social outcasts, but even with them I always felt I wasn't acceptable.. I guess what I am today has been there all along just in its immature stage(?). :(
 

Stoochy

Member
yeah thats what always makes me feel so stupified,because i was somehow shy,but i also wasnt shy. Its very strange,because i was the one in the group of friends who went straight up to a women and start talking to her. i even had a job ,wich I was good at,at drawing people on the streets to fill in an questionlist. so i was literally on the streets yelling stuff with a big smile so people who come and fill in the form.. :?:
i also was the one who loved to dance at clubs even if no one else was dancing.. without a drop of alcohol..fucking weird man.
 

Birdman

Well-known member
Angel_Of_Death said:
Birdman said:
Hello Im new to this forum. I realized ive had social anxiety about 2
months ago, but ive had it for longer that for about 1 year i just didnt know it was a problem and i was just put on zooloft and inderal for it.
Anyway I was wondering does anybody ever think about how they used to be before they knew they had social anxiety. I always do that and I just wish I was that person again.

How is the combination of zoloft and inderal working for you ?

I was just put on it about a week ago and it is working for me a little bit, i can say i have improved about 25% i still have the symptoms of my social anxiety its just that the symptoms are subsiding a little bit. hopefully
it goes away in a few weeks. The inderal stops my physical symptoms for a couple hours
 

Cyrax

Active member
HappyColoredMarble said:
I often think about when I was a kid. I was shy, but not a recluse. Something went horribly wrong around age thirteen. :?
Same here. Before around age 13-14 "social anxiety" wasn't really a problem for me..I mean, I'm pretty sure I've had SAD my whole life, but back then it wasn't so bad o_O. and ever since it's just gotten worse :?
 

bublgum

New member
I remember everything so well. I miss being able to be in a group and be myself without worrying about people judging me. I used to be talkative and smiled and laughed. It's like I'm in a prison now--trapped not behind bars, but behind my fears. But who knows, maybe someday I can "break out". :D
 

Kamen

Well-known member
I can't say that I've had a sunny childhood and that I've been a happy person, but I wasn't such a hermit as I am now, though I've always been introverted, thoughtful. But now it's worse.
 
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kuhtreen

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Yeah...it feels like that person is not even living inside of me anymore. Like she is just gone forever. Deep down, I can't seem to find that part of myself. I forget what I was even like back then...it was too long ago.
 

sleepysparrow

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I've always been this way, I don't remember ever being any different. This is why it's so hard for me to change, to become something I have never been.
 

_Brittany_

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The only thing that I like about my old self was that I was always happy and optimistic. I was still pretty weird and shy though.
 
_Brittany_ said:
The only thing that I like about my old self was that I was always happy and optimistic. I was still pretty weird and shy though.

That's exactly what I was. A happy person who had confidence before with a little shyness. I know something changed me. It's impossible to change without any reasons.

I wish I can come back to who I was.
 

Birdman

Well-known member
qwerty103 said:
_Brittany_ said:
The only thing that I like about my old self was that I was always happy and optimistic. I was still pretty weird and shy though.

That's exactly what I was. A happy person who had confidence before with a little shyness. I know something changed me. It's impossible to change without any reasons.

I wish I can come back to who I was.

I know i feel the same way every day. I think to myself, at that time, I
would never think i would be in the situation I am now.

Did something dramatic happen in your life that you think could have caused your social phobia?
 

kuhtreen

Well-known member
qwerty103 said:
_Brittany_ said:
The only thing that I like about my old self was that I was always happy and optimistic. I was still pretty weird and shy though.

That's exactly what I was. A happy person who had confidence before with a little shyness. I know something changed me. It's impossible to change without any reasons.

I wish I can come back to who I was.

Same here! I have always been introverted and a bit shy, even before my social phobia. I absolutely hated the fact that I was shy, but now...I'd give anything to just be shy again. It all started when I moved to a different city and had to go to another school where I didn't know anyone. That was the beginning of it all. If I hadn't have moved...I definitely think that I would be normal right now. I feel like I've let myself down in a big way. I let this problem snowball into something bigger than I can handle. I didn't know it would get this bad. In fact, I didn't even know social phobia existed until I developed it myself. :cry:
 

rainstreet

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i can honestly say that even before i was aware of my mental/emotional problems i didn't like myself. the only difference is that now i know why.
 
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