This is essentially a personal reflection or exposition on how I became a loner. I was relatively "normal" with respect to social functioning until about 14. Prior to this, I actually had a substantial amount of friends and would socialize regularly. At about 14, I became increasingly isolated to the point of essentially interacting with no one, outside of simply attending school and doing the requisite academic work. This occurred for the next 4 years, although I did have one close friend.
However, eventually that friendship ended, and thus began a period of four years in which I have spent virtually everyday alone. Even now, I literally have zero friends. I have a high tolerance for being alone, and therefore most days it simply does not bother me. However, I admit that it does get tiresome, especially when you think back of spending years being alone.
Currently I'm living in an area where I don't know anyone, and besides classes, I'm alone constantly. I will either read books, watch netflix, or listen to music. However, doing the same thing over and over again also becomes tiresome, and I just get to the point where I don't see the point in doing anything.
On the plus side, at least I'll be dead soon enough (please note that I am not condoning suicide, or implying that anyone should take that action). I am simply tired of being alive most days.
However, eventually that friendship ended, and thus began a period of four years in which I have spent virtually everyday alone. Even now, I literally have zero friends. I have a high tolerance for being alone, and therefore most days it simply does not bother me. However, I admit that it does get tiresome, especially when you think back of spending years being alone.
Currently I'm living in an area where I don't know anyone, and besides classes, I'm alone constantly. I will either read books, watch netflix, or listen to music. However, doing the same thing over and over again also becomes tiresome, and I just get to the point where I don't see the point in doing anything.
On the plus side, at least I'll be dead soon enough (please note that I am not condoning suicide, or implying that anyone should take that action). I am simply tired of being alive most days.