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Sometimes I think I actually died from my suicide attempts and that I have to continue to live for punishment.

Like I died yet I am dreaming I am still alive... I'm kind of over it now but when I first discovered what I did to myself I was scared that I wasn't really alive and that I have to continue to live out my miserable existence.
I've actually felt the same way. This is going to sound odd maybe, but it's made me feel like we're all (or, at least I am) characters in a story, because the way my life has unfolded feels too unreal at times. Like there are things that I have survived from that I shouldn't have survived from, and it makes everything feel...scripted, I guess. Like there is some person sitting in their basement, writing a story with me as a central character, and that is what my life is.

Like I said, I know it's probably odd. I just know what it feels like to feel like you're not really alive, or at least not alive in the traditional sense.
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Not me personally, but there are some who believe that our universe is simply a world created inside a computer program. Strange thought eh..
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Not me personally, but there are some who believe that our universe is simply a world created inside a computer program. Strange thought eh..
Maybe the "being" who has created this computer program that we might all be living in, actually put the idea of the movie "The Matrix" into one our movie producer's minds, just to REALLY mess with us!

So we watched a movie (The Matrix) about people plugged into a false reality, while WE are all inside of a false reality ourselves..... >.>




I have a distinct memory of riding in a bus when I was 11 years old and having the creepy thought that I was just a character in a story. I have not had anything like that since though.
Maybe it is just our brains having a glitch when it plants those thoughts into our conscious. It is having trouble trying to make some sense of this world?
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I think its our brains consciousness still evolving and us as a species coming to terms with it. Still, as we evolve there will always be "glitches" along the way.

Sometimes I feel like I'm inside a dream, and when I spoke to my psychiatrist at the time about it, he called it a well known state which is called "dissociation".

It makes sense to me but it can still feel like I'm watching a movie from inside my body with me being the lead character, going through the motions.
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Ah, yeah the matrix I should have thought of that as I typed it out The Truman Show is another good one, with some guy in the sun dictating exactly how every twist and turn of your life will go based on what would draw in the best ratings.

I've never seen this movie(although I should), but I'd think the closest example may be the movie Stranger than Fiction. If I understand the plot right the main character is not only the main character, but he knows it. I can remember the comical sequences of the booming voice of the author coming out the sky as the Will Farrell character is freaking out that his life is seemingly getting narrated.

That's sort of how I feel, without the voice of the narrator in my ear, just the aftermath of their words. My life would make more sense sometimes if this was the case. I know it's probably just my perspective and how I see things.

But honestly, I think it's a little more fun to live my life like it was a story sometimes. If it's not hurting anyone or myself, why not, eh? Gives me a reason to live a life worth retelling
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Absolutely Vj! Life IS a story for each one of us
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