Phoenixx
Well-known member
Hey guys. I know I've been gone for a while, initially left because my life got busy, I was in a really good place, and figured it was time to move on and focus on other things. Things are still really well in my life, but recently I've been struggling with my depression and anxiety again.
I finally decided to take the big step into going to therapy, since it's free here at college. I had my first appointment this morning. I met with a woman who I really liked. She was nice, had a quiet voice, I didn't feel intimidated by her hardly at all. I didn't have too much of a problem opening up to her, and she said she was surprised I talked about as much as I did since I scored rather high on her diagnostic sheet for social anxiety.
Since this morning's appointment I've felt so weird. I just have this raw feeling, and I've felt self-conscious and exposed all day. I can't stop thinking about what we talked about and what else I could've said, how the conversations could've went, etc. I did cry during the appointment. Actually I pretty much bawled, and that really threw me off guard because I wasn't expecting it. We just got to talking about things that I've kept withdrawn for a long time and it just hit me. The dam broke and I couldn't stop crying for a little while. :sad: I feel so stupid for crying. She reassured me that it wasn't stupid and it was okay, but I still feel so dumb.
I'm just looking for some reassurance. How did you feel after your first therapy appointment? Is it normal to feel this way?
I finally decided to take the big step into going to therapy, since it's free here at college. I had my first appointment this morning. I met with a woman who I really liked. She was nice, had a quiet voice, I didn't feel intimidated by her hardly at all. I didn't have too much of a problem opening up to her, and she said she was surprised I talked about as much as I did since I scored rather high on her diagnostic sheet for social anxiety.
Since this morning's appointment I've felt so weird. I just have this raw feeling, and I've felt self-conscious and exposed all day. I can't stop thinking about what we talked about and what else I could've said, how the conversations could've went, etc. I did cry during the appointment. Actually I pretty much bawled, and that really threw me off guard because I wasn't expecting it. We just got to talking about things that I've kept withdrawn for a long time and it just hit me. The dam broke and I couldn't stop crying for a little while. :sad: I feel so stupid for crying. She reassured me that it wasn't stupid and it was okay, but I still feel so dumb.
I'm just looking for some reassurance. How did you feel after your first therapy appointment? Is it normal to feel this way?