Everything alright?Annoyed. I just really hate people right now, more so than usual at least..
Empty. I dont feel depressed, i just dont feel anything. Im done,terminated,anhilated theres nothing to keep me going, no one that cares, or cares if i care. Im invisible and always have been. Do interactions even mean anything. I can interact with people now fine i guess, but after those ephemeral moments im still alone and probably always will. Why cant i connect to people? Or allow myself to when others connect with me. Its not that i fear my life is over, but that i missed the chance to start it, i know im twenty but its probably too late, i never learned how.
I care, and it's never too late to start living life
Everything alright?
Right now... I'm bored as hell. Such a lovely day too...
No, not really. I'm just really appalled by how careless people are, specifically my so-called "friends". I'm always helping them out and listening to their crap and basically being their shoulder to cry on but when I need them the most they all turn their backs on me and leave me in the dark. Why the hell do I even care so much? Why SHOULD I care anymore? I should just start being a total b**** and see then if people will stop walking all over me. I'm tired of being a human doormat to everyone.
It's sad, but ppl even friends will take advantage of a person willing to listen. But we all have every right to assert our own feelings and interests, nobody is or should be anyones doormat. So shake out the dusty doormat you think you've been and lob it at your friends and no mas. You don't need to become a total witch - just, "Hey, I want to listen but I have a problem too and mine is just as important as yours". (obviously, wouldn't go that adroitly, not that that was adroit =) But anyways, it's hard to stand up for self when this seems to be the norm of the relationship, I know that too well. But anyways, you have ppl here who will listen at least
Woohoo Yay!
Alone...and trapped.
Don't feel like this. Don't let things get you down. You shouldn't hate yourself because you can't change who you are, and i'm sure whatever's wrong will get better.feeling down, i hate myself
feeling down, i hate myself