I've been a recluse for the last twenty years and done next-to-nothing with my life
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stuck at zero
This is a good thing..even if she didn't have any other talents at all (which she DOES) , it wouldnt matter because she's still doing the right thing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_WgiaMGGtw
Bored to f*ckin buggery with my stupid f*ckin life. :thumbdown:
Bored to f*ckin buggery with my stupid f*ckin life. :thumbdown:
I can't do anything right. Every time that I try my best, I always end up coming up short. I TRULY TRULY TRULY wish I was never born. This life has been nothing but pain and misery. What's worse is that I don't see an end in sight.:crying:
Have you tried CBT or REBT? I'm trying, although it is a very slow process, because it's trying to change thinking habits of a lifetime. Ideally, i'd like to be able to think in a CBT-like fashion all of the time. But for now, i only do it when sth noticeable happens (an "event"); i need to try to do it simply when i'm feeling bad.
The only thing that works is when I drink. I rarely do it but sometimes I am in more mental anguish than I can handle and that's when I go for the bottle for some relief. I have also been looking into pot. Probably won't smoke pot but I have read how beneficial it can be in these cases. I honestly don't know what to do anymore man. People are getting fed up with me because I can't do anything, they don't know of my issues because I know they won't understand. Also my mental issues are starting to affect me physically. From headaches, to stomach cramps, to my body feeling cold and numb as if I was a corpse. I just wish I didn't have to suffer so much.
Pot helps me with stomach issues (great for nausea) and also helps my general mood. I over use it, but honestly it seems to work better than my medication.
My cousin is a... marijuana enthusiast, lol. It just so happens that I was talking with him last night about maybe getting me some weed next week. It would be a lot cheaper than prescription meds and therapy, that's for sure.
I've been pushing myself to get out more lately anyway, and I've found that I can actually do more than I give myself credit for. It's a little easier when you get older because the need to look your best and be cool all the damn time is gone.