AtTheGates
Banned
tried that . doesnt work.
How are you feeling?
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tried that . doesnt work.
theslowesthand
Banned
I don't know WHAT THE HELL i'm doing with my life. Nothing. Nothing at all. Question is, should i stick to having no plan or goals? It's been so many years since i had such. How is life meant to be lived? :question: :idontknow:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Same here. Don't even know if it's having goals in the long-term? Aye, it give you something to achieve and/or work towards, but... :idontknow:
Sorry, I know that doesnae really help. But I'm not in a great place mentally at the moment. Not suicidal or owt like that - just really f**kin' pissed off. :kickingmyself:
Pacific_Loner
Pirate from the North Pole
Maybe you didn't try the right wardrobe
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
@Graeme
Yea, there isn't as much fat on the lower extremeties as there is elsewhere on the body to cushion the pain as much. Should I ever get a tattoo of my own, thank you for the warning
Are you gonna post a picture of it?
If you check out my thread in Personal Stories part of this forum, I've post a few photos of that tattoo I recently got done. :thumbup:
defiance
Well-known member
My friend I couldn't have said this any better myself. Because that is where I have been for longer than I care to remember. I just don't know how this life is meant to be lived. I'm trying to figure it out but since I can't really engage with the world, I guess it will always remain a mystery to me until I can break this vicious cycle I currently find myself in.
On another note, I had a dream where I went back in time to when I was a teenager, I basically convinced myself that I was him but from the future and I knew what he was going through. I then began to counsel him and did everything in my power to get my younger self out of that jam before it got much worse. The dream ended without me finding out if I was a good therapist or not LOL. But still very interesting. Then I woke and started feeling like sh*t again but hey nothing new there. :sad:
GraybeardGhost
Well-known member
I feel like I should creep into a dark corner of the basement, to curl up and die like one of those horrid crawly things that have too many legs to be from this dimension.
BlueDays
1
^ Regardless of what happened in your dream, do YOU think you did a good job of counselling yourself as a teenager in your dream?
I had a therapist a couple of years ago who asked me what I would do if I could go back in time and be that little girl who was bullied for several years in a row in school.
Without having to think I instantly came up with what I would do.
I found it a very therapeutic exercise! :thumbup:
GraybeardGhost
Well-known member
Same here, but who the hell would miss me? :idontknow:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
My family would definitely miss me, even though they are difficult, to put it nicely, in terms of getting along with.
But won't rant about that now.
AtTheGates
Banned
last week I got my high school transcript in the mail after ordering it ..so today I just scanned it so I can email it to the community college I'm enrolling to for a transfer degree.
I guess I'm happy to be moving in a better direction in life..plus the fact that I currently have a pretty decent salary coming in.
I suppose I should be kind of happy bit I just feel so completly alone ....not having close friends can really affect your psyche ....having a friend/freind(s) to talk to everyday has worked wonders for me in the past. it just makes me so much happier.
but I have a lot of trust issues so trying to make new friends is really hard...I hate when I find a good friend, things are ok for a while, and then they leave for good...thats what happened a few months ago with the last friend I had.
there are some people at work that I'm KIND of friends with but not OUTSIDE of work, so its not the same.
im so sick of feeling alone....I want to have friends and be involved in their lives...if I had THAT id be fine.
I dont want to feel completely alone anymore.
I guess I'm happy to be moving in a better direction in life..plus the fact that I currently have a pretty decent salary coming in.
I suppose I should be kind of happy bit I just feel so completly alone ....not having close friends can really affect your psyche ....having a friend/freind(s) to talk to everyday has worked wonders for me in the past. it just makes me so much happier.
but I have a lot of trust issues so trying to make new friends is really hard...I hate when I find a good friend, things are ok for a while, and then they leave for good...thats what happened a few months ago with the last friend I had.
there are some people at work that I'm KIND of friends with but not OUTSIDE of work, so its not the same.
im so sick of feeling alone....I want to have friends and be involved in their lives...if I had THAT id be fine.
I dont want to feel completely alone anymore.
theslowesthand
Banned
Well at least you know what you want. That's the first theoretical step - acknowledgment.
I don't know if i want to stay alone or not.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I know what you mean.
I was looking at my friend's facebook pages tonight and I was like "I think I'm good".
Most of them aren't nearly as happy as their pictures portray. Many are either already divorced or heading that way, paying child support out the nose, or simply drowning in debt.
If I met a cool person that I trusted it would be a different story, but I'd much rather be alone than miserable. Thank God the two aren't one and the same for me.
Megaten
Well-known member
That's the funny thing. We're social beings and are basically programmed to strongly desire today connection to someone else. But trying to coexist with another person can be a struggle that makes you want to be alone lol. Some couples are genuinely happy. Others effectively ruined each other. It would be nice if they came up with a way to flip a switch in your brain to turn that need completely off if a person decided it was more trouble than they were willing to put up with. And those that want to keep it can.
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Kiwong
Well-known member
I suppose my Sister would miss me.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
While I'm not usually one to dwell on being treated as inferior. Being disabled I'm more than used to this attitude But this past Saturday really made me aware of just how smug and arrogant my family truly are, as far as treating me like shite. :veryangry:
But ah cannae say owt, otherwise it's me who's being a c*nt. :kickingmyself: They lecture me about my "ungrateful" attitude, yet not a word can be said against them as regards their egotistical, smug "We're better than you" mentality.
I guess I can't just wrap ma heid aroon the mixed messages my family give off. :idontknow: But then that's probably why I prefer being "anti-social".
But ah cannae say owt, otherwise it's me who's being a c*nt. :kickingmyself: They lecture me about my "ungrateful" attitude, yet not a word can be said against them as regards their egotistical, smug "We're better than you" mentality.
I guess I can't just wrap ma heid aroon the mixed messages my family give off. :idontknow: But then that's probably why I prefer being "anti-social".
GraybeardGhost
Well-known member
I need to get a new sister. They keep disappearing on me. :sad:
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I'm pretty disappointed in myself right now.
I was cutting my grandfather's grass and ran over a root that bent the blade. I asked him what setting to put it on and he told me the wrong one, thinking I was going to start in the front yard; but I started in the back yard and the setting was too low.
I should've had more sense than to cut it that low; once again, my inability to trust myself bites me in the as$.
I have to change that.
He had to run some errands so we couldn't fix it just then, so he's gonna call me when he gets home.
It seems I can never take the initiative and just get things done.
Dog sh!t and damnation.
I was cutting my grandfather's grass and ran over a root that bent the blade. I asked him what setting to put it on and he told me the wrong one, thinking I was going to start in the front yard; but I started in the back yard and the setting was too low.
I should've had more sense than to cut it that low; once again, my inability to trust myself bites me in the as$.
I have to change that.
He had to run some errands so we couldn't fix it just then, so he's gonna call me when he gets home.
It seems I can never take the initiative and just get things done.
Dog sh!t and damnation.